Keep Livin'

[Verse 1] I'm feeling numb Thinking of changing my name to Crystal Meth Playing this game Holding my mic like a pistol Aiming at death But I love nobody Alone in this world that's how I came in it But shit could flash and reverse the same in a minute I don't even love life no more My niggas, I just live it And I don't love love All the hurting is infinite I cry myself to sleep sometimes Wept a gallon of tears From malice, divorced mates to lost peers Drowning in a haze of smoke and glasses that never ran empty Bottles of So-Co Cheap vodka and twenty; twenty Spending my pennies for thoughts On quarts of henneything Got none pain like the movie have plenty Like a shotgun, double barrel fully loaded ready to blow I wanna turn around and aim at myself Been failing my health I hardly even eat no more My lunch is munchies from the corner store Tropical fantasy Me and my family Me and my niggas used to be tight And now we see each other on the block with no pounds And keep it moving you gotta move on I know I'm doing it right I'm still living hustling life, still here [Hook] For all my niggas that smoke a pack a day For all my niggas hold the bottle drink the pain away What type of life is this For all my niggas that getting the cash And all my niggas that chill on the av Lets keep living For all my niggas drink the pain away For all my niggas smoke a pack of Newports a day What type of life is this For all my niggas that getting the cash And all my niggas that chill on the av Lets keep living [Verse 2] Grew up as a child of an alcoholic Sister to schizophrenic And already inherited one and they both are genetic When sun falls I gets no sleep Nights are filled with party and bullshit Bacardi and full clips Just to deal with it Got a full heart But don't feel with it no more I have fury of woman who's scorned Just live my life like the X-Files and trust nobody Forgetting everyone Now I'm just forgetting the money Funny how shit can change and switch up fragile to rip on you Spent too much of my young life just trying to stitch shit up I'm living day-by-day now Every step is play by play hand to mouth I'm just trying to make the moments count Eyes weak stressing my soul Chest roll from a heavy smoking addict since nine A nicotine addict Devoted at it but still I need some kinda relief I quit the trees at least I'm learning, niggas but I'm slow at it Always give my motherfuckers the benefit of the doubt But it seems that everybody is just out for self I used to love her But now I gotta make her work for my wealth I gotta eat y'all [Hook] [Verse 3] From rapping to nicotine Niggas will clapping And niggas who fiend From some shit I never seen to everything I been through It's like, loosing the love of your life twice in the same night Being deaf for years, gained your hearing and loosing your sight Trying to shine but just getting eclipse I'm just tryin to find the perfect words to fall from my lips Thinking too hard about what shit has fallen Mainly the chips Hoping by the next time installment that I'm not attempting to slit wrists Got nothing down I work my way up from the bottom to the Top of the ladder Claim what's rightfully mine Working against time It's been too long And I haven't had a chance to leave y'all yet I apologize Getting older, wiser Seen the picture painted My destiny faded for this And not for easy times I put my heart in these rhymes for always Love it or, leave it or ready to die Yeah I'm ready, come on