Red Velvet Cake (Pound Cake Remix)

[Intro] Don't mind me, I'm just ramblin' Look [Verse 1] Once I had a dog, man it died My nigga taken from me, broke me on the inside Tears streaming down my face, rolling off my cheek At 10 years old, my life stays bleak Moving out the house I been in my entire life Those the type of scars that never fade, they stay inside That's the kind of shit that my Dad put me through I ain't complaining, I'm just saying everything you brew Momma holding down the fort, she made it on her own I just hope she finds and keeps the strength to hold her own Cuz we out here in the cold while the wind is blown Sitting by, waiting for a ringing phone Unemployed teen with a bill and money problem What else am I to do, except go out and get these dollars Even if I slave out in the hot sun It ain't over until the deed is done That's my mentality, since I was sixteen When I put the pen to pad and wrote my first sixteen I mix stupidity with lyricism, that's my gimmick If it means my family don't starve, I'm all up in it Cuz no experience means I'm not a good buy For these employers, so all I hear is goodbye And my Mom could have been at the hospital Working on the career that she had studied for But that's what happens when you marry someone that's not logical They drag you down and hold you back, make that shit improbable Shit is something outta Mission Impossible Because life makes you feel smaller than a particle We spent many nights crying in each other's arms I wish I had the power to block my Mom from harm I wish that I could just go back in time And stop her from making that mistake in life Even if it meant I would not exist At least something good would come out of it It's a lot more than a life crisis I wanna ride in 300 Chryslers Mo' money, mo' problems, No money, still a problem N versus NP, can't solve 'em And they tell me trust in God, but you can keep your faith That kind of trust is broad, I need something more straight Jesus wanna take the wheel, can't let him tho My nigga, they didn't have cars back when you was born So how I'm gonna let you steer my life for me This is something that I have to do Hoping that I find my place on Earth someday Tryna wash off things that will never go away Tryna move on from the past and live another day I wanna let go of the rage inside of me But I can feel it burning in my chest All these feelings causing me stress Sometimes, man, I feel it's for the best That I'm alone in the world with no next I'm afraid that my father is what I'll become Before that happens, I'll rest my temple on a gun And just click, clack, bang! Have it all done End of the line, that's the final one To walk this earth, lay in dirt That's what I'mma do If worse comes to worse, my only avenue But don't mind me, I'm just ramblin' Take it as a precaution that I'm gambling' with I am just venting, don't take shit to heart Just my mind feels like about to part All I'm asking from the sky is for a fresh start Until then, I'll just talk to y'all with my art Young