Prolegomenon

[Intro] I brought you something close to me And left with something new See through your head You haunt my dreams Nothing to do but believe Just believe And I will And i will [Verse 1] Tears in my eyes So I know this will be real Thinking back on times when my mom would fix a meal She would call me to the table JT wash ya hands Stopped whatever i was doing woulda thought it was a trance Went to the bathroom so bright it would seem Living the life It felt like a dream Dry my hands and head down to the kitchen I would always catch my parents at the end of their kissing Then we sat down and ate Talked about our day Finished with my plate Then I'd go outside and play Those were the days [Verse 2] Witnessing something that I thought I'd see forever But A lifes a B And I C that she is clever D Emotions that she caused had me screaming F her So I had to keep it G Years passed then we had to split Off to Savannah and Japan is where my dad went He said JT you are the man of the house now And till i get back you gotta hold it down gave me the crown He said take care of your mom and then I said I will I was only 7 This was getting real But he said that he would be back And I knew that in the end That we would be a happy family once again But things happen Things change Ignorance is bliss I never heard a realer phrase In a year or two life would strike me in my face Still young Only in 5th grade I was in the kitchen on the computer watching cow and chicken Then my mom called me to the living room and told me to listen Walking in I saw she seemed a little weaker Handing me the the phone Putting it on speaker It was my dad saying JT you know that we love you right At that moment I saw tears forming in my mothers eyes [Verse 3] My dad beat around the bush His voice a litte hoarse My mom cut him off And said we're getting a divorce I froze And said really Next thing I know I had this unknown feeling Clenching at my heart Ripping it apart I had so many plans Now its a new start Was it me? Did I do it? I know my grades are not the best I promise I'll improvem' How can i fix it? Just give me a clue! Is it cuz I didn't listen Ok I'll clean my room Then reality came from all around the curb Turns out I've been silent and I haven't said a word My dad was on the phone So i tried be strong Didn't let my feelings out til' I knew I was alone Teachers asked what is wrong you haven't talked in a while I said that I was fine Then I'd try to force a smile Kids would talk about their parents having all this fun I would talk about my dad Then I would talk about my mom My stories were seperate Theirs sounded like perfection I was never neglected But still felt so unaccepted Dang [Outro] This is the realest I've ever ever wrote Hands down And if that is a lie then let me pass now Im not just spittin' lyrics These are not just songs These are verses showing you that you are not alone I'd like to welcome you all To Life In The Spotlight: The Casting Call This is just the beginning I just pray that I get casted;