Play It Back

[Verse 1] I play it back in my mind, and I think that I'm fine But I'm not, I don't know why I can't see the blurry eyes I can't dream through hazy lies All I see is crazy times I just want it all to end, if it don't I think I'll die Let's just start over, cuz I've got nothing left Except my music, and emotions no one else seems to get And the stress that I keep buried deep in my chest It breaks the hold, it kills my soul and I'm about to be next No matter what I won't change, I guess I can't complain But every day just seems the same and there's nothing for me to gain I can only piss you off, and I'm about to lose it all I can't feel tall when all I'm capable of is working just to fall My back's against this wall, so backwards' not an option I'm trapped in the corner so please mawfuckin' stop it I can't take it any more, somebody should have told me caution Thought I lost it all before, but tomorrow is the auction I don't know why I keep fighting just to lose To write my little songs, to sing the subtle blues I've been trying to get away but I can't seem to move I can't see any reason or meaning for these truths And now the score is even All these fucking demons in my mind while I'm dreaming Everyone's attacking me like I'm accused of treason I just want to get away but I can't seem to appease them [Hook] x2 Everything I want, is stacked in a pile and is burning on the lawn I can't go back on my dreams, but I can't find success so I'll try by other means [Verse 2] If I had a fresh start, would anybody understand me? Or would I only be honorable in the eyes of my family? Growing up I was taught that my mindset should be can be But I realized reality was changing that to can't be I can't be something special I can't be anything great I don't believe in God but he completely fucked my fate Is it coincidence I've made everything on my own When I've always been alone for only reasons God knows? Why do I hide my pride when trying to be modest? Do I even have pride? I don't know to be honest Fighting back the monsters and the demons in my closet I knew that I was crazy, but I think I fucking lost it Maybe it's just time for me to let it go Clearly I have no sanity so no point in trying to show The world, everything I'm made of Moving too fast to wait up I just want to reach the point where my self-respect will stay up Grace me with your open ears, don't forget the broken years The stolen tears that made me who I am today, behold no fear I'm better than before but my pain still goes unnoticed Maybe when I see the fame it'll be on and I can show it I can boast it [Hook] x2