Unstable

My heart's so dark, I can't see myself I'm out here just like "Aye let me be myself" Sometimes I wanna leave myself But I can't get up out bed These voices in my head, say "just put down the pen If you want the pain to end, just free yourself" Ain't it crazy when you think you can't believe yourself? When you're looking in the mirror you can't see yourself It's been hard enough to breathe, myself and I done seen it Everybody's life ain't scenic, life ain't a movie Motion pictures last forever, but my body won't Sometimes I feel like I'm unstable, but then what's it to me Nobody's perfect, maybe this way I won't die alone I got a life to live, that's what my mama say I wanna trust her, but I'm only on a holiday So when I get back to my life what will I do then Cause if my life is worth a penny, it's the Hardaway Unstable I've been digging a grave with the parts of my brain that still work They're burying me with my dead dreams My dead dreams I been praying but I still hurt I been waiting on the day I feel these pills work I been waiting on the day somebody knows my pain So I can finally get off this dose of novacane I don't wanna talk to people, they don't know me mane I'm even talking like I'm not myself I need another dose pills, doc No help, I'll draw my chalk line by myself I only say it cause you feel it too You wanna change, that's just the real in you I know it's true I got that feeling too And if you hope and pray, I bet you'll feel that feeling move I bet you feel it like a blossom and you need it To grow the seed of change, and if God's with it, you can't beat it I been winning, I'm conceited. No, I'm modest. I'm just honest I'm just trying to say that you are not alone... We're all unstable