Positive Rap

[Verse 1] So the doctor tells me I'm positive, I'm reckless How would you feel, nigga if you found out you was infected? Ask him to run the test again, he said, "I can't" But this is 99.9% accurate, and no chance of results being incorrect In a fret, I ran out of the clinic like not hearing it prevents death But bein' real with myself, I came to grips with what he said Now the fear starts settin' in, all sort of thoughts ran through my head Like the pain I'mma have to endure and the embarrassment All of it'll fade me quick, can't have no baby sick And who's the crazy bitch who gave me this virus? Figured I'd never catch it, but now I'm livin' it A grown man cries when he knows his time is limited Used to be player, yeah it seems I played myself For thinkin' every broad I fucked around with had their health I'm walkin' down the street wondering how I could Explain this shit to my mother and friends, or if I even should Maybe I shouldn't, cause then I'll be looked at different I remember when I would make fun of cats like that and wouldn't Listen to a word they had to say But now look at me: I ain't actin right The fear has caused a loss of appetite Let a virus snatch my life, and now I learned a painful lesson Just the thought of it keeps me in deep depression [Hook 4X] The virus... who gave me this virus? [Verse 2] It took about a couple of weeks for me to get used to my new handicap Now most can't stand me, black, cause I'm heartless and lifeless I started off scared, but now I hate the world Police lookin' for a male, my height who raped a girl Only 14 years of age, her name was Pearl Yeah that was me, I admit it, it almost made me hurl Sometimes I be callin' up chicks I used to work with Give 'em dick, get 'em sick, cause none of them are worth shit See I'm thinking 'bout death every minute, can't hardly stand it A bitch gave me this illness, I'll give it to the planet You don't understand the anger that flows from heel to wrist I'm angry at hoes, bros, and those who still exist I go to malls, talk to broads, g'd up and get the digits It's silly how quick I can hit once the liquor kicks in Stickin' chickens sometimes taking women I couldn't have I could be hittin' someone you with so you shouldn't laugh A broad with syphilis, a yam wit Hepatitis B Another with herpes, I'm already dead it don't bother me I'm normal to my dogs, they don't notice the change in style We ran a train on 3 broads, they all infected now Now they can't say shit, but still I'mma keep it secret, see kid What they don't know won't hurt 'em, I guess for now at least it's Kinda funny, I thought I'd be livin' it up makin' money But now I have no future, dunny, none of my days are sunny So what the hell? I might as well end my life now I'm livin' trife style, I picture the doctor's slight smile When he told me I'm positive I'm positive I'm 'bout to rob this bank I'm sick of livin' kids I'm goin' out with a bang Walk inside a national city with a shotty Screamed "everybody get on the ground or we gon' have a bloody lobby" The teller was frightened, tryin' to dodge a massacre She gave me all of her cash, but afterwards I blasted her Fuck y'all people, I shot at every person in the building I terminated 8 citizens, 2 of them were children The rest I left fled to the flack contemplatin' what I did Feelin' remorse for dumpin' shots on little kids Who never had a chance at life What the fuck was I thinking? I made this bed I sleep in I woke up as a weakling My anger was childish I realize that now And choose to turn myself in Cause I seen my face all over the 6'o clock news And I deserve to be in prison, or whatever fate I have to face I hear sirens surround the place so now I wait I got a .380 to my temple when the phone rings I tear trickles down my cheek when I hear the answer machine Answer Machine: "Hello this message is for Mr. Rubin, um...this is Dr Huffer. We're really not supposed to disclose this type of information over The telephone, but I do have some good news for you. We seem to have a bit Of a mix-up with the blood test... like I said he have some good news, you're Negative... " Jakki: Oh, no! OH, NO! NO! NO! *gunshot* "... so I deeply apologize for any inconvenience or unnecessary strife this may Have caused for you. And if you have any questions, give me call, the Number's (614)-827-3545 begin_of_the_skype_highlighting (614)-827-3545 FREE  end_of_the_skype_highlighting. I'll be in my office today, and pretty much all Day. Thank you very much and again, we do deeply apologize for the Inconvenience and the mistake. Have a good day."