Letter to my Hommies

I just gotta be real with this that's all I can do Verse One A lot changed in this past year coulda' died but I'm still here Realized when I saw tears that loosing me was her biggest fear A dim room and these IV's pumping drugs inside me I lay and watch she stand in shock Her heart dropped when my heart stopped These skeleton's that I'm letting out Is everything I hate talking bout' I been reserved I'm short with words If you observed then you figured out I'm Far from thinking like a normal mind Write my best rhymes at the worst times Used beats to beat it for relief that's needed Demons defeated process repeated So nah it's never personal never wanted to burden you That's why I keep inside and try to hide the things I'm going threw This pack of cloves and my space Is all I need in this case Just always know I'll be straight I can't deny my own fate I put it down in mixtapes I hope you noticed the records I documented my life each moment and every second Some things I might neglected but in time i'll say it all As much as this was for me understand I did it for ya'll Chorus A letter to my hommies and everyone who know me Been devising this plan In time you will understand Did everything I can I could never say it all Just wanna remind ya'll In this letter to my hommies A letter to my hommies and everyone who know me Been devising this plan In time you will understand Did everything I can I lived it and let it go Just thought i'd let you know In this letter to my hommies Verse Two I warmed up to my destiny then warned the world who I'm born to be Gave a side they don't often see still can't believe I'm played overseas Getting use to these interviews you ask me I'm still paying dues I know a few who would say I blew but in every eye it's a different view And these the things I just can't explain how happiness ull bring Joy & Pain I can't complain I asked for this I accept the gift and these minor twist Just know in my soul I will never forget you I'm playing my part in this war with the devil A rebel that's crazy I'm reaching a level where I can no longer deny that I'm special No it's never personal I'm just caught in a zone Growing accustom to what I knew I'd do on my own Walking this world alone I'm gone that's how it seems I'm having visions of heaven while betting on helish dreams Justifying my means while tryna' ignore the facts I'm spending most of my time I'll never recoupe it back So put these pieces together I gave you the missing link And step inside the mind of a Man on the Brink Repeat Chorus