Finding Better Places

[Verse 1: Ivan B] This is the time, this is the moment we shine, the moment we climb There’s moments in life where we follow, we fly but I’m still trying to find that sky Looking for a reason to listen to me Let me just give you some pieces of me Let me just take out my heart that maybe you’ll see that I’m not Superman that I really do bleed Man I’ll give you that thing that repeats in your car But I’ll give you that music to heal every scar Look to the sky and I pray to the stars, find out that myself I’ve been trapped in the dark And I know what it is that I’m here to do Is this really the person I’m supposed to be? Trying to give you all my story but I can never find the words cause I don’t know me I’m happy, I’m sad, I’m angry, I’m mad and it’s all because of this past When every kid in your school believes you can do it but really thinks that you’re trash When you got friends that say, “we’ll always be there”… I look around but where you at? It’s like you all got up and left; onto the next What was my chance to pack?! Putting in effort but I should’ve known better but being alone is just nothing but pressure Through my endeavors I’m piecing this letter to every kid trying to hold it together This life is just long, and I’m just from the street Even the strongest of man will fall weak But with all the pain and the hurt, the tears on your shirt That’s what finding happiness means And now you probably think I got this all down But I don’t even know what I’m doing right now When you’re giving your best till your last breath There’s a time where you just want to drown Picked up myself from the cold hard ground Friends don’t believe what I’m doing right now Teachers telling me to pull all this right down Got this whole time to turn this whole life around And why follow all the steps when I can make my own trail? Said the ship was sink now lets see me sail Hope’n that my momma just a fraction of a tail I’ve been giving you my heart every time it’s been impaled I ain’t out callin names but you know who you are Trying to shoot me down but I rose to the stars No I’m not there but I know I’m not far In the coldest of times you can’t feel anymore Trying to find happiness, I found it in you Gave you it all and you break me in two Broke and confused like I got nothing to lose I don’t choose to feel for someone, I just do I don’t choose to get over it, I get through Built myself up and that was through you Gave you more than my all On my knees and I’ma call But still picked up your calls Though to me, you don’t mean nothing at all [Chorus: Ivan B] I don’t mean you mean nothing at all [Verse 2: Ivan B] So many things that I will never get out of my head I could write an endless letter Tired of writing, you tore me apart when a wolf who put me together See I don’t know what I would write, what I could say, none of this ever comes easily I could write you the cheesiest lines but never come close to what you really mean to me What do you see in me? I could feel that I’m close but I’m lost on where to go, I’m just scared what it’s gon’ be like But however it goes as you are holding me close I can tell what the future feels like Like that day on that bridge, where we laughed and we kissed, I still see the moments still burning inside Even with the pain and the bliss when the stress really hits you are the compass defining my mind Feels like I’m climbing, I’m climbing I look at my parents their dreams are so hallow Mom could have had her liquor, we bicker she taught me straight from the bottle She’s better, and healthy and sleeping Told to me to chase all the things that I’m dreaming Give her the house she wants, all the money she needs I’ma grow her the Garden of Eden Running out of time, I’ve got nothing to waste My own producer started to lose faith Now my close friends are turning two faced, to face with two ways that go broke or get paid Sitting at work, take a look at yourself Your life is scheduled by somebody else Your dreams and views are not something that you choose But youswallow your two’s because a check really helps Living my life that will never be me Look out your windows and maybe you’ll see The things that you dream of, the things that you can do, the things that you crave for, the things you could be So find what you love and don’t ever desert it You find what you’re worth from the purpose inside Living in a time with these kids are uncertain It’s eat or be eaten, the hungry survive Losing my patience with dollars in times I’m unwinding my heart with these lines that I write If you’re losing your mind, you can jump into mine Let me open your eyes to a world that is blind This is a mistake that I’m glad that I’ve made it Step into my shoes or don’t judge where I’ve been Just look into my eyes and I’ll tell you I’ll make it The way to your dream is the life within