Smilin' (Don't Let Me Stop)

[Verse 1:] One two three four One two three four One two three four I'm barely able to make ends meet Cuz even tho rent's cheap Father time remains unfriendly And sometimes downright condescending I borrow at his mercy while he hounds for payment by next week However don't let me stop smiling It's all I have left when fear starts compiling I recall childhood there was a time when Overthinking was not how all my time spent Now I think of when the vibes sent was vibrant How did I screw up and ruin that process? Thumbs down squarely on me Just being honest If winning is the topic that remains constant It don't apply here, the concept is nonsense Especially when the account balance reads 9 cents Tears ducts in a drought no sense in crying All in all don't let me stop smiling Cuz if I lose that, why am I even trying? [Verse 2:] Uno dos tres cuatro Uno dos tres cuatro Uno dos tres cuatro Uno dos tres cuatro He looks to me as the source of positivity Without the gap tooth flashing, you couldn't picture me The sweet saccharine zing of caramel drizzling Makes sweat sizzle and keeps his thistles whistling If romance is afforded I pray it never forfeits Like one-eight-seven, do nothing but bring Kaution If I ever stop smiling could be misfortune So don't let it stop I am begging the sorceress The Almighty One putting him in my path Cosmic blessings feel close within my grasp I'm bout to go in, Caesarean section It is unknown what that'll give birth to The season's vernal The high is herbal Standing at attention is that my Colonel? Real communication is nonverbal I'm jumping hurtles and the touch is internal For some reason I can't stop smiling Even if my heart my just get burgled Gotta keep it jazzy, Ella Fitzgerald Gotta keep that positivity eternal Let's get it! [Verse 3:] Aba biama ürüa gadrü Aba biama ürüa gadrü Aba biama ürüa gadrü Aba biama ürüa gadrü Please! Don't let me stop smiling Because I just don't have anything else to offer It's just like that ancient proverb Smile at the world, the world smiles back in concert Past malefactors have attempted to kill my mood Military impositions kept me filled with gloom Social obligations tried to seal the tomb Smiling was the main thing that helped heal the wounds Three strikes against me I always feel consumed Gay Black HIV positive, who's feeling doomed? But I'm claiming the power to make millions move So I can't stop smiling but I'm a be real to you Words still can bruise Not much a pill can do To cure the self-hate whenever you feel confused It's the will to prove Whatever you're willing to One day at a time, let faith fill your room Witnessed it firsthand, I used to chill with dude On the verge of suicide, voice filled with blue Endless rivers of tears but, resilience brewed Even mourning his mother's death Still the truth remained Insecurities to be clearing through He walked away from a past that held him back People that kept him trapped He just knelt and asked For forgiveness and strength to make his health come back Couldn't help but smile seeing how far he came I won't stop till the angels call my name Even then I'll keep smiling down, shining down Hope these words guide you as much as your time allows Yeah HunkE....gimme blues Gimme blues! I need it Executive Realness, you know how I do!