Losing Faith Acapella

(Verse 1: Dice) God, I'm losing faith in the power of prayer I'm not trying to say that i doubt that you there I'm just trying to say that i doubt that you care sometimes Cause every single day, I drown in despair Struggling runs in my family Handed down to me like inheritance but I'll be damned if my child is an heir When I was young I used to come to the county fair I mean the County Welfare building was a family affair Yeah, can't even get a real job I need bucks lord, that's why I'm saying "Dear God" A tortured soul I need my spirit purified And I could deliver a river to God with tears cried But still I'm standing in this prayer stance Holding up these prayer hands Asking for a fair chance in life My fans think I'm probably lyin' When I tell them I've never seen over the poverty line (Verse 2: Demetrius) I'm an emotional wreck I hope I don't crash and kill a kid Lord, take the wheel Cause I've lost the will, to live I've turned into a dealer Selling weed, pills, and shit I'm a dealer that's not holding all the cards How do I deal with this? I want to reach new heights and get to new frontiers But everyday I get two new front tears Crying in my sleep, tears reach my ears Does God hear us weep? Does tears reach his ears? I'm losing faith in prayer, asking God to spare a minute Is there only a certain amount of blessings that the man upstairs giveth? And if so, did a nigga go over his prayer limit? When these streets get grizzly, do you just bear with it? I try to stay smarter than the average bear, while you just bear witted Cause I see death around the corner, right there vivid Or maybe we just get specific prayers answered Cause I don't have shit but I also don't have rare cancer I thought of suicide the other day Then I seen my mother's face The doctors had to cut her waist Just for me to be here in this car Thinking of steering this car, against a wall and ending it all And the only thing I leave behind for her is the cesarean scar That'd be a fuckin' waste I just want to be successful and travel to places I can't go I want to cop fly gear like police in plain clothes But the lord is my Sheppard, we all sheep in his flock, I know But when it comes to the prayers of his sheep, he heard it all before