Manateen

I feel like I'm becoming A butterfly Or a golden bee My smile is like razorblades When I smile It cuts bloody deep My body is on the magazines My face on the TV My voice on the radio That's me in my dreams But when I open my eyes I see I'm a piece of SHIT A WORTHLESS COWARD A VAPID WHORE A MORAL-LESS REFUGEE COVERED IN SORES A BLITHERING SEA COW LOST IN ITS DREAMS NOBODY LIKES ME, YEAH NOBODY WANTS ME AT ALL NOBODY LIKES ME, YEAH Wet blue world--- it fills me up I find I'm deep inside Waves crash and I breathe water But I haven't died I won't come up I won't come up for air I won't come up I won't come up for air .....and beneath the waves I hide my head in darker waters And nobody sees ....I cut myself And hope to draw you in But even the sharks pass by Someone please explain All alone I'm growing colder Laughter like cancer over my shoulder Mirrors like hatchets to the world of my face You know I'm a complete . . . . . I'M A COMPLETE DISGRACE I'M NOT A MANATEEN I'M NOT A MANATEEN JUST LEAVE ME ALONE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE . . . .and beneath the sea I give up and I descend And I'm finally free ... and in the end Wet blue world ---fills me up Fills me deep inside Waves crash and I breath water But I haven't died NEVER WITH A FURIOUS POISON IN MY HEART WILL I RETURN FROM THE DARKER WATERS I LET THE TIDE TEAR ME APART NEVER WITH FURIOUS POISON IN MY VEINS WILL I RETURN FROM THE DARKER WATERS I WONT HOLD MY BREATH AND WAIT FOR CHANGE I DIE ITS A SUICIDE MY BODY SWALLOWED BY THE BIG BLUE VIOLENCE THIS IS THE ENDLESS TIDE I won't come up I won't come up I won't come up for air tonight I won't come up I won't come up I won't come up for air tonight Cold And all alone I held my own Now I give up