A Million Exploding Suns

I've forgotten my name I'm sick and weak and fresh from sleep I crawl from a crooked bed With dirty feet and shaky hands The numbers on the clock read One-one-O-four A.M I've got time to clean myself Then sell my soul again When I sleep I dream I dream I'm awake Or was it when I'm awake I dream I'm asleep? I work, I shit, I eat, I sleep I'm inspected by the number seven This can't be my life No this isn't me I don't know what's beset this change I barely recognize my own face In my mind I know that something's not right But in my heart I'm bathed in the golden light! I'm bathed in the golden light!! I'm bathed in the golden iight!!! My eyelids still heavy, my pulse still faint I'm puzzle peices, my memory's stained I feel strength swell - a day dream I'm shaking under this duality My pulse is still faint I hear a strange voice but don't know what it's saying And in this moment Seconds stop and I burst with clarity A wealth of love and hate gone blank For I finally remember my fucking name! I eat rocks And I breathe wind I've been around the world and back again I've lost the static The gray is gone I have the power of a million exploding suns I am consumed by my might Blinded in light as I would be in night The void is holding me tight It doesn't feel right When will I ever break free Within or without, I'm chained by the dream The void is holding me tight It doesn't feel right When will I ever break free Within or without, I'm chained by the dream The void and the light are both me It doesn't feel right Bright lights flood my eyes It's true Now I realise The perilous truth Of a perilous life By my own device The strength of my high Is the strength of my low Unless there's no me They both.. They both explode!