The Last Word

I wish my life made sense Or, at least more than cents So I could cop a house and afford to pay the rent For every night that I got bent and thought it was the end For the nights I can't remember with friends that I won't forget I gotta say, it's all love from then until now Guess I made it this far and I don't even know how From nights I spent smoking, nights I spent drinking, nights I spent making this music, and just thinking Went as fast as my blinking Within a second, every girl I ever fucked with taught me a lesson Glad I stopped fucking with y'all Shit, I deserve better Hope you find what you're looking for I keep writing these letters to myself and never send them Keeping breaking these hearts and never mend them Just trying to make my own heaven in this hell on Earth And really, for what it's worth I deserve it after years of just settling with dirt Here to sew the patches I guess these things happen My days are spent laughing Slow, but surely passing Watching the time pass me, without me I'm not ready to move forward I'm still looking all around me Wish I didn't need these drugs That help me think this way Telling me, happiness lies within It's needless to say At a time like this, especially now I just found a way in And you're trying to throw me out Let me chill, let me decide what is real What I decide to feel I'm just trying to know the dill Fuck what is real, and what is fake I don't partake in any actions that y'all make I'm barely awake The never ending cycle that got your world turning Got your blunt burning with people I ain't concerned with Man, I guess that I change And my methods are strange ,but my life ain't shit If I ain't making a name Struggle to hold on to my past It wouldn't last Just like my cash I ain't trying to spend it fast But, at last I found my placement I hear, but don't say shit So, I ain't trying to deal with all the poor lies of a fake bitch And you can say I moved on by staying where I'm at Spitting these raps, and never looking back Got a whole future ahead of me Advancing, cos they're letting me Man, I'm tripping off nothing but, I'm loving everything And what a sight to see And it's hard to believe That all this shit was always there right in front of me, under me Just waiting for me to get over it No longer know what sober is just trying to hold on to a wrist Busy writing lyrics The truth, don't want to hear it Time to open my eyes And hope that I can clear it all the way I hope you hear what I say Before all of the feelings fade and the songs no longer play But, I'm here to stay until everybody leaves I need my space, I'm just trying to breathe And I finally accepted that I'll never get an explanation No longer see the point in having conversations [Outro] Cry, laugh, smile You deserve that Just smile You deserve that Fuck the bullshit Just smile You deserve that You deserve that