All Those Years

All those years I can see clearly in my rear view The man I was, the man I wasn't The man I was to you wasn't who I should've been Back then I could be anything I want to be All depends on what he brought to me What he had that week that either made me strong or weak I took my insecurities out on you, I guess nothing's changed Even though I stopped using, I'm still the same Still using the same tactics for getting my way Still using attacks and at the same time Wondering why be sober if inside I'm still the same guy Maybe during all those years I didn't grow at all So the spring I thought I had, was summer, now I'm in the fall After all is said and done, I'm still the one you hate I'm still the one you love, the one you can't escape I'm so sorry that I've hurt you so much Wish that you could let go, wish that you could not love Me anymore, you deserve more than you've gotten here Over the last year, syndicated, my mistakes, and your tears And not ever did I see one, never let it show Maybe cuz I'm cold and you love the snow You see the beauty in it, like you did me But I'm destroying the future that I still see In my dreams, I guess love is blind You're an angel and I'm nothing but a waste of time Trying to impress you by pretending to fly Trying my best to keep my tears off of the page While not losing my grip on your hand up on the stage I want you here with me, the joy and the pain Whatever weather we face, the sunshine and the rain But I know there's only so much storm you can take I understand if you can't stay Cuz of the last year...