Winter Snow

[Verse 1: Heartsick] I'm sorry mommy, I hate to say this but I did not get drunk tonight Been sober for a year coming back home feeling good inside I missed the head lights, closed in, struck me down, feels like am dying I don't know why even I never love you tonight am crying Tell little Jesse not to cry for me, tell him to be a big man Tell him not to waste his life, tell him to take care of dad It's funny 'cos i don't see anyone around I don't think anyone can hear my screams even though they loud I'm grown but it's still hard to believe That why did my baby who loved me had to leave I might have made some mistakes but they never deserved death I'm picturing you with me, with my final breath It hurts to die, but hurts more to know that i won't be seeing you again Wish that I would have changed and be your son once again [Chorus] I cannot go to the ocean I cannot try the streets at night I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind I cannot go to the ocean I cannot try the streets at night I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind [Verse 2: Heartsick] Yeah the war just got worse, I don't think i believe in Bush I felt something pierce through my armor in this rush Your knight is down, bleeding like the rest Instead of being with you I took two in the chest It's hard to digest these metal, I don't think i will ever feel better And i don't think I would be writing you any more letters I know how it is, its alright to cry Everyone has time to go out, guess it was my time to die I'm happy, just to know you gave me everything You were with me wiping my tears from the sink You helped me to overcome the thoughts i had of war You helped me erase all the battle scars I'm sorry it had to happen this way I'm sorry it happened on your birthday You lost me in a fight, that wasn't even mine But remember that I smiled looking at your picture when i died [Chorus] I cannot go to the ocean I cannot try the streets at night I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind I cannot go to the ocean I cannot try the streets at night I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind [Verse 3: HEartsick] I don't know what to tell man, I'm choking on my breath I'm standing in front of your coffin thinking why you dead Yeah, I notice the marks around your neck I can still see the dried blood specks You were the only friend I had man, you helped me all they way I am what I am today, 'cos you held me to walk the way And now, suddenly, i don't see you man, where did you go I got you your big can of Cola, please come back home Let's have those nights of video games and chat Let's have a game of ball, I will let you bat Well got to go man, i know you look at me from up there And yeah, the doc said, the cancer's bad, so i will be seeing you one day [Bridge] I never wanna see you unhappy I thought you'd want the same for me [Chorus] I cannot go to the ocean I cannot try the streets at night I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind I cannot go to the ocean I cannot try the streets at night I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind