Some Scars Will Never Fade

Shards of broken hearts Leave scars and ugly marks Of misery I see her hazel eyes, smooth, grey, dated lines Aged tastefully, faint wrinkles; shaded fine I remember every single detail like I painted her On a canvas with a brush, palette's untainted dyes For every shade on her face, never fade her beauty Love casted: everlasting, unconditional to me Day dreaming in my day tasks, feelings slowly Lingering in my chest, never withering, hopin' That I can clock out, walk out, drive up into our house Kiss her on her lips, skip her heart beats with my mouth Drooled out, my day dream, awakened slowly On my desk, every day when I wake up only To do a dead beat job for a boss who's boiling Up my anger to a point where I'm loyal to a paycheque Only to repay debt, savings for a rainy day Scattered stationery, clock's ticking slower everyday Today it just stopped, mind's numbing, time's relative Perception to be free; that's when time ain't relevant Weeks slow to weekends, weekends pass to work days And I'm back at it, scribbling memos to the normals Droids in this cruel world, programmed to be average I'm sick of the darkness embodied in this labyrinth My feelings on display, despair performing on soul's cabaret As hatred dances in a-maze, shocked with reality Glimmer of some hope and it's piercing through like needle ends Beauty tends to be the only thing that I'm believing in (see her beauty tends to be the only thing that I'm believing in) And then the big hands strikes: a quarter past 8 A rotten time card, a dimming time of day I can hear thunder roaming, cloudy, now the rain pouring in Streaks of earth's tears screaming on my window's sill Walk out the building, lips slightly curve up Grinning, this feeling, I get to see my baby soon enough I walk through the puddles, see the sky on the ground Eerily quiet, even my foot steps made no sound As I turned on the engine, the ignition gave a slight smoke In my rear view, water piercing through the dust so I drive through the quiet roads, inner streets, lamp posts Flickering, the smell of rain seeping as the air blows Musky and dense, this natural redolence Relenting the anguish, I'm as content as I've ever been Drive through the turnpike, exit through the freeway Left on the inner street, I pull up on my drive way The night turned colder, the wind sprints harsh Rain drops grew louder and the clouds bring dark I walk up the foot steps, the door was unlocked So I rotated the handle and the whole world stops The warmth on the metal made my whole heart drop I glance across the street, see a white car parked Hinges creek louder as the light floods dark My first footstep: notice size twelves jogs Wetted raincoat on the rack dripping water on the floor Panels soft from the moisture, I'm lingering on And I'm hoping my assumption's erroneous so it seems I'm hesitating walking to the stairs; perilous scene One step to another like a terrible dream I'm hearing moans getting louder, unbearable screams Creaks of springs, situation: eschewal please (and I swing open the door, I hear is a shriek) I swing open the door, all i hear is a shriek Can't move, I'm standing still, I'm unable to speak And the sight of betrayal make faith easy to leave Downtempo of time, muffled yelling, she mumbling She's yelling and she's shrieking, caught in her own atrocity Some other hollow bullshit; incoherence and dishonesty Screaming, naked, laying in my bed With some rotten motherfucker, it's as if i was dead But I can't take my eyes off her, I'm lost in my mind My skin's tingling, heart racin', stomach's turning inside Rush of emotion, love means nothing' to me I backed away but never took my eyes off of the sleaze I see through the peripheral, he leaps through the window Broken heart, broken future, an emotional swindle And from there it slowly faded, it's the last time I traded A relation; is a statement of insipid admirations Trying living with deception, try forgetting all the pain Shattered hearts are put together but some scars will never fade... (shattered hearts are put together but some scars will never fade)