Mackey's Lament

[Verse 1] Been at this for a whole damn hour Trying to find a way to get the money and the power Everybody I knows got weed or got powder But I ain't got either, got a lot of demons The room down the hallway where every single dream lived Turned into a wall where I couldn't reach at all Boxes of alcohol leaned up against the wall Like statues she praised daily like gods Her head would nod as she walked out the room Where the blood left a stain on the pillow since June Shaking in the middle of the night trying to stay asleep But every time she takes a drink her eyelids start to blink She starts to think About the pain that's life causes The gains,the strain from life's fortunes Drowning in a pool of regret While losing life's light from her glimpse with each sip Used to have a grip on vices but ran into a crisis And now she pays the price for that shit Guilt's eating her guts and she can't get a grip All she could do is tap a brew and take a sip She used to able to make sense of shit that ain't make sense But now all she do is take sips Up to the point she sips what you can't sip The pain be to much to bare she can't drink shit Damn [Verse 2] It's our fault Heard the shot fired Sounded like it was next to him when it sounded off She skipped school to hang out with her boyfriend Had some news for him that she knew would destroy him Had a new boyfriend around the same age Now the old man's removed out the new man's space Old man's face turned cold, gun raised Bullet transmitted to the front of her brain Bang He said it was an accident Probated five years, her whole family cried tears Most came to divide shares Buy my sister's shit up and decide theirs Felt like a bull runners nightmare Just trying to hide fear behind all of his ideas From seeing Vita right there Yeah But all things happen in a flash Cause happiness in this life is never meant to last