Smoke in the Night

I often wonder why we never made it home And why it feels like all the effort that we gave was never noticed The pressure kept on building up and closing in And by the end, hell, I swear to god I couldn't swim Like since when did all of this become so hard to walk around I miss the music that influenced us to talk about it We used to sit around for hours trying to find ourselves inside a song that made us want to stop and smell the flowers For a second, just a single second's all I wanted Now I feel like every star I use to find you with is falling out the sky Now I can't even seem to find the time And if I did, I doubt you'd even look me in my eyes like you used to Everything we had is just a story now And anyway I see it it's impossible to word it out Word of mouth says you still leave the candle lit Hoping that somebody will notice and hold your hand through this It wasn't anybody's fault From the moment I was leaving I could feel it in my veins Thought that I was someone that won't forget your name You begged me to not get on that train You told me that I wouldn't come back the same I couldn't help myself from the minute I was leaving I could feel it in my veins I begged you not to stand in the rain I told you that the weather around here don't change You couldn't help yourself from believing that I'm someone That won't forget your name Every now and then I pick the phone up And dial in your number and stare at it for a moment I never call, I never will, it's hard to focus That's what we get for throwing love into the ocean Tied, cutting ties stuck inside trying to make it out I string it up write the line and try and lay down If I could find the peace of mind to go and press rewind I'd do it in a second if I thought that I could stay around For just a second, just a goddamn second I would freeze the whole entire world in place if it let me You always told me I was gonna make a difference I just never thought it'd be the kind that'd eventually split us And I'm sorry, I never meant to leave you all alone And have you living life with a person over the phone The folks from back home say you still leave the lantern lit Hoping that somebody will notice and help you manage this It wasn't anybody's fault From the moment I was leaving I could feel it in my veins Thought that I was someone that won't forget your name You begged me to not get on that train You told me that I wouldn't come back the same I couldn't help myself from the minute I was leaving I could feel it in my veins I begged you not to stand in the rain I told you that the weather around here don't change You couldn't help yourself from believing that I'm someone That won't forget your name You begged me to not get on that train You told me that I wouldn't come back the same I couldn't help myself from the minute I was leaving I could feel it in my veins I begged you not to stand in the rain I told you that the weather around here don't change You couldn't help yourself from believing that I'm someone That won't forget your name