Choking on the concrete - album version

Sorry I'm not out tonight, my pockets feel like old I've got nothing I can offer you as I sit here in the cold And it's a story I've been telling for longer than I know Sorry I'm not out tonight, my pockets feel like old I've got nothing I can offer you as I sit here in the cold And it's a story I've been telling for longer than I know Where did all my riches go An inquest I am scared of cause I don't want to know And I've been walking off my worries Hoping they won't follow me round and round and round But they always find me, and I said why won't you leave me alone Why won't you leave me alone I'm terrified of answers so I choose just not to ask Surely everything is easier when you leave it in the past And I know that I won't be waking almost every single night Dripping wet with deep regret locked in this sadness fight And I am falling faster to the ground Punched at every corner with my arms securely bound And I am waiting for existence to hold me by the hand Explain that all's not lost for me and make me understand that I am free Make me understand that I am free Make me understand that I am free Make me understand that I am free Make me understand My panic gets the upper hand as it tackles with my breath And I can see this is no playground fight it's a battle to the death And I am choking on the concrete with my face pressed to the floor The bastards won't defeat me, can't you hear me scream for more And I am falling faster to the ground Punched at every corner with my arms securely bound And I am waiting for existence to hold me by the hand Explain that all's not lost for me and make me understand that I am free Make me understand that I am free Make me understand that I am free Make me understand that I am free Make me understand