What's My Name?

Dealt with depression, made it through in the strangest way/ Gave my life to this music, and one day it saved my brain/ So through all the drama, and everytime she gave me vague/ Excuses, disputing every change when the baby came/ I just went back to this other world, but now the gates decayed/ So how the fuck can I get back without staying paid/ And how can I escape back without always making waves/ Move in major ways, keep pretending you behave like saints/ I can't keep this heart if the world insists on playing spades/ Sometimes I feel like a sniper, cause I'm alwaying changing aims/ If you think you can handle this monster, meet me at the station babe/ Some call me insane because I'll play eight days at a vacant stage/ But I have greater aims, than to end all this shit with a razor blade/ Man, I just gotta blow, so every lyric I spit just makes grenades/ Before I'm in my grave, and I take my last breath under slate/ Fuck it, I'm the one I blame, just tell me what's my fucking name/ I think I'm done, can't keep dealing with this madness/ Watch as my life crumbles like these buildings, fear lashes/ This monster inside helps me when all I see is pitch blackness/ Hellfire brought down on my enemies, dissapointing and disastrous/ Thought I could gather the strength to get through this but shit happens/ He who used to only give balance, now solely inhabits/ This persona, there's only so much I can do and still manage/ Waiting for someone to put me out of this misery - sick cattle/ Feel like god in the fucking flesh, but I'm a mere vassal/ Midas bars, cause I spit gold, every line's worth a king's ransom/ Yet, I'm still broke as fuck, and not sure if I can still handle/ All of this stress and this drama, before this monster will trample/ All that's left of the real me, leaving me just a grim phantom/ But my soul's been scarred, it's too deep that shit scratches/ Before I'm in my grave, and I take my last breath under slate/ Fuck it, I'm the one I blame, just tell me what's my fucking name/ Feels like I'm drowning, will I ever fucking breathe again/ I gave my all for this life but it wasn't enough to reach the glen/ So I have to climb this mountain all over just to feel the beat again/ My dreams are crumbling around me but I can't pick up the pieces yet/ I gotta pull myself up and do this on my own to keep from being shelved/ But these people act like this rap shit's such a breeze to get/ Without understanding all of the work put in, I believe no less/ Of anyone attempting to make it, we get equal threats/ It wouldn't be the first time that I've gotten beaten friend/ I just want to understand my place in this world before I bleed to death/ Staring up at the stars with these headphones, let the beats commence/ And maybe I can make it out of poverty, make me free from debt/ But everything that's happened the last few months make me a seething mess/ And I feel like I'm just blowing hot air like some heating vents/ Before I'm in my grave, and I take my last breath under slate/ Fuck it, I'm the one I blame, just tell me what's my fucking name/