I'm Perfect

Don’t you see I’m perfect No, no... They don’t know me Don’t you see I’m perfect No, no... They don’t know me Not anymore... My chest has been ripped open, seems every question's loaded Trying to understand what's going on, walking through this city What bubbles beneath the surface, and there's another disturbance I'm always such a burden, need another glass of whiskey I always seem depressed so what the fuck am I missing What else do I have to give up to get a taste of victory I'm only getting older, doubt I'll make it as a poet Will I still be in the same place when I get to my fifties Mumbling these judgements, nothing I see is certain Seems I'm going in circles, running after only theories So I gotta keep this mask on so that I can keep looking cheery Gotta hide away the pain before I end it all swinging Heart deep as the oceans, gotta keep it cold like frozen If I don't there's no way to stop myself from feeling guilty I have no real purpose, but ending it all seems risky So sit down, we can talk, I'll need another glass of whiskey Don’t you see I’m perfect No, no... They don’t know me Don’t you see I’m perfect No, no... They don’t know me Not anymore I'm still so far behind, I don't know what to decide Because no matter what my choice is, I'll just feel heartless Seems no one loves me, so I guess you can call me Monday Knees finally buckling, I'll never make it as an artist Especially when all I can see around me right now is darkness Cause there's only so long I can continue to be docile Imagine what it implies, from this light and love, I'm deprived At this point, I can't tell blood or tears, they're all droplets Stay deep in my studies, gotta make it through life humbly It may look like I'm hurried, just ignoring all my problems Because if I don't I'll go crazy, feel it's already starting But at this point I believe I think I'm some kind of martyr Before I resign, my eulogy I'll fucking recite To everyone who was there, didn't do shit when I toppled I'll put it bluntly, you wonder why I was hostile Because I'm perfect, and it's not always gold when it sparkles Don’t you see I’m perfect No, no... They don’t know me Don’t you see I’m perfect No, no... They don’t know me Not anymore Bring you down into the ground Bring you down, bring you down to the ground Bring you down into the ground Bring you down, bring you down Don’t you see I’m perfect No, no... They don’t know me Don’t you see I’m perfect No, no... They don’t know me Not anymore