You Don't Love Me

[Grand Agent] Uh-huh Special dedication... to the bastards of the world It's from the heart, Grand Agent You know it's funny I ain't never had a child before From what I hear though it's somethin magical for sure Some in the know have told me it's like, no other rush To feel oneself willing to receive so much From what I hear though, you got about a dozen or so And when they need you, we gotta let the government know Daddy's not being supportive, so now the courts is Forever laced in recollections of your face You wasn't checkin for me, I was just a case Summoned you from down south, mouth full of foul taste I heard about the drama, the shots ringin out I know about the white bitch you was bringin to the house Yeah, mommy put me on to all the wrongs done But in absentia, who could defend ya? I'm your son Not your lawyer, you innocent in my book of life And yo I only came by to see what you look And it's funny I could tell by the look of your lady I was yours, cause she was raw plus she played me Like you taught her to work for you, that's my M.O It had to come from somewhere, Flow recognize Flow I copped a Heineken and then like my money she slid Over to the jukebox, I followed her when she did And asked if she knew where to find you, now mind you I hadn't a clue what I'ma say if she do And when she did, disappearin down a hall to fetch you I lent the pen to my mind's eye to sketch you Six foot three or maybe six foot two No more guessin would a nigga ever be put through And it's funny cuz I wasn't really willing to bother 'til it hit me that I wasn't lookin for me a father See, Allah's mine, and that fact padded the impact When your lady returned and said I had to come back... [Chorus: unknown singer] You don't love me... And I know now... You don't love me... Cause you don't know how [Grand Agent] And it's funny, it's not that I feel fatherless I guess what you never had is real hard to miss My sister pop did what he could, when he could And it's not like I was the only orphan in the hood And damn sure wasn't at them schools I was sent to For safekeepin in the dark, while mommy went through Her own plight, takin her demons to war I only had dreams of home like bein on tour Where family's a foreign entity to the mind Though mommy wrote me mad letters, I guess that's why I write better It's funny, it came together unseen But just between me and you, this rap shit is one dream I had some others too, like givin wifey one or two Seeds, whe need that but not if I'ma do how you do (Our love goes) back and forth and forth and Back from L.A. the last time I asked for her hand And made it happen in less than a month That's one less want, in less than like four I was out the door I know that's probably more than you need to hear But sayin all that to say you not bein here bred fear I bled tears from the heart on my sleeve A nigga needed you around like you couldn't believe (for boys to man shit) I know life's coy and candid No way to really plan it, that's why I don't demand shit I'm sayin' though, but on the other hand With flesh, you can't imagine what I'm willing to understand So look, I'm twenty-something, with stupid money comin I don't need you for nuttin why you still frontin? It's beyond me But I'm sure you know where to find me So when you ready set your mind free [Chorus] - repeat to end