Baby Father

Look at you, back to square one See your little birth control never hurt a soul It might have prevented one that wasn't meant to come You've had your fair share of pregnancy scares Guys are fathering babies that ain't technically theirs And you'd like to say "seeing that affected me bare" But even to this day you still forget to beware that you could Ruin your life doing your wife There's always that safety net we expect to be there But it's down to you making that decision in hospital When your living conditions are mission impossible You could go from washing the dishes and watching porn To raising a little kid that wishes it wasn't born Cause mum & dad never have any paper change Consider your possible position at a later stage Some obstacles are hidden at a greater range and all now her behavior changed See you been tryna call her but she shegged the requests Cah the two lines showed up on her pregnancy test It's tempting to dwell on what you did & didn't do But first you gotta confirm she isn't kidding you And you just wanna tell her straight "This don't equate to no relationship even if there is a kid in you" (Can you even call it a baby?) I swear it can't feel nothing until the 24th week And the circumstances couldn't be any more peak Cause you don't know this is not just manipulation Tryna avoid words like 'problem' and 'situation' But you know she won't not be blunt for you so you fix your face and ask her what she wants to do But she reckons she wants the yout especially one for you And it's easier after the first rocky months are through (Thats what she wants to do) But all you can see is more strife It's her body but it's your life So you're tryna find another pathway now Cause when you're halfway in you're always halfway out Its something you can't ignore and can't force But is the choice ever any more than half yours? So ironic This decision making process was a composition of competitions Between wrong decisions and non-decisions Now she's doing what she isn't supposed to do and effectively making decisions for both of you Fam tell me this isn't the golden truth Cah she feels she's meant to be taking a strong position But to you she's potentially making the wrong decision And if she was only seeing you That would make her a fairly lonely lover Now for the first time in this, whatever its called You both acknowledge that you barely know each other All you could do was put on protection And avoid the common but wrong perception That that's the only form of contraception But it looks so different on reflection My G you woulda had more patience than a hospital had If you could confirm you're the only possible dad Suspicions about lying and semen Prying and scheming But shes crying and screaming And in the ends our priorities are messed up She'll idealise it so nothing else can stand in her way And you can't stop thinking what the mandem will say That's why a family can't be planned in a day That's why a family can't be planned in a day Heated words, you spit lava She's forcing you to choose between becoming an absent dad & a shit father Being stuck between a rock and a hard place is odd When you're so confused you can't pray to God You just wanna go back to the yard, play some COD But this ain't going away, so you go in & say Exactly what you don't wanna say "If you get an abortion, problem solved If you choose not to, i'm not involved" She goes mad it's a miracle you survived But what you don't realise is she had that exact same conversation with her actual boyfriend Before you arrived You think about the baby's life If it becomes a criminal You know that's gonna be your bad kid But mummy's only doing what her mum did And you're only doing what your dad did Couple years down the line She's asking me if I'm gonna stick around for time Saying "I gotta think about this child of mine" So we both made decisions and I can't say I'm proud of mine Decisions decisions