This Is Me

Last week I had a thought I'm 20 years Thats old enough to start imagining and plenty fears Or will I go cause I dont fit in here with any peers Know theres more to life than smokin weed and drinkin many beers And partyin but what else to do When the allure of the fame isn’t helping you Wish I could tell Jay-Z I see myself in you I started with a dream and now I'm tryna be wealthy too But its tough when your balancin it all And walkin down a tight rope you balance bought to fall The label's keep tellin me I'm talented and all But I need another candy girl to really have it all I'm hungrier than ever for a check And plus my situations not at all what you'd expect I work my ass off, I'm always stickin out my neck Cause they say the real currency ain't cash but respect But if you have one without the other That means that you're a stupid motherfucker I hate bein broke, but havin all the fame And not havin to deal and have to be the blame I wanna win bread and bring it home so after all we can live right And give half of it to mom just to get right And just to prove to her, I know she wasn't psycho For always supportin this dream, she was right though But its tough when life's as stormy as the weather And her health isn't gettin any better And everydays a struggle, the most recent trouble was her job She called me cryin, told me she was layed off, God But she told me, keep my spirits up high She workin I'll just keep on pushin aimin for the sky And people wonder why I spend everyday high Cause my life isn't how its supposed to be, but I try Keep feelin that I'm livin life wrong But then I stop trippin as soon as I hit the bong I go out to the club, pretend my problems all gone I see chicks at my shows, know the words to my songs My new girl told me "G" please promise me If we gon' be together, you gon' have to give me honesty And honestly I'm tryin baby listen But it's bitches everyday that see your spot is where they wanna be I'm tryna do the best that I can for you I feel that you deserve that and I care for you Cause while a groupie might love you when your big Soon as the fame goes, they ain't there for you real A rappers girlfriend, bad spot for a wife And this is just to give a snap shot of my life For all you haters gossipin and speakin all freely Feelin like you know me cause you listen to my CD Because I'm in the lime light, you can go and start A bunch of fuckin rumors, shit is rippin me apart On one hand I don’t give a shit, the other one I’m sick of it This is just to tell you what the business is, this is it This is it, yea I'm sick of it See my biggest problem is that I give a shit If I ain't care I swear I'd probably be fine But its that, this shit is killin my mind Damn And that's real This is me