The Never Haves

[Verse 1] I've been laughed at, ridiculed and mocked I've been chased around the block, just to get tackled and socked I've been kicked out of my home, and then they changed the locks Telling me to go away whenever I came and knocked I've been force-fed pills to try and kill my ills I've been shut off, because I couldn't pay my bills I haven't eaten for a week, cause I was waiting for my payday I've been called an "Uncle Tom" and "nigger" on the same day I've been divorced and had to fight for joint custody I've disappointed my new wife and had to rebuild her trust in me I've been enraged when someone rattled my cage I've been called a "wack emcee", and I've been booed off stage My father was two things: absent and biological Kids are scared of me, cause of my overactive follicles When I think of what I've been through, feeling dejected It's the never haves that flipped my perspective [Verse 2] Never have I been so anguished I literally sweat blood Never have my friends slept while I wept Never have I seen a smiling friend and accepted his kiss Only to be surrounded and pounded with clubs and fists Never been interrogated by those who hated me violently They claim that I'm an enemy of God--oh, the irony! Or stood quietly under slaps and spit Cause the purveyors of piety find my blasphemous Never had a friend that I considered my rock That denied me three times before the crow of the cock Never stood before a crowd who was unanimous And wanted to crucify me instead released Barrabas Never had a crown of thorns jammed in my brow Stripped naked while my captors mockingly bow Never been between two thieves nailed to a tree Crying, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken Me?" [Outro x2] And I never will You did it so I never will Father, thank You for Your grace so I'll never have to taste of death, because You stood in my place I never will