Breaking Down

Chorus 'She said I wonder when it'll be my day Cause I'm not too far from breaking down And all I got are screams inside But somehow they come out in a smile And I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way'' Verse 1 I got this rage up in my mind, but I lock it up inside Got this pain up in my heart, but you'll never see me cry [Im not feeling like myself, feeling more like someone else Feeling different than I could, Im feeling different than I should] Its a shame, most these days, I stay locked up in my room I go to sleep to Biggy Smalls, then I sleep into noon The months are growing dead and the days are getting gloom When I throw the headphones on, then I feel my heart boom See music keeps me breathing, yea it keeps me alive Without it I'd be fucked, no I wouldn't survive I wouldn't have a drive, and I never woulda strived To be the best I could, or to really contrive I turn ideas into feelings, then I turn feelings to songs Turning scheming to dreaming , turning rights into wrongs Now my musics doing well, yea its coming along I finally stopped searching this is where I belong Chorus 'She said I wonder when it'll be my day Cause I'm not too far from breaking down And all I got are screams inside But somehow they come out in a smile And I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way' Verse 2 When I write these songs today, Its like an Everyday Battle See Im doing what I can, but im just living in shadows I write about my life, and I artistically dabble While these other artists seem to just simplistically babble Well Im sick of being looked at as your Mr. Number 2 Apparently I just exist, The world revolves around you Wheres my number one hit, wheres my "damn you can spit" Wheres my "shit your legit", When is it time to just quit Do you know how far I've gone, how much time I've commit Just to hear your musics hot, but it don't quite fit Do you know why I rap? I rap for revenge On any motha fucka who said that I can't when I can I've grown a little bit, I've matured as an artist I may not be that fast, but Im going the farthest I may not be that hard, but Im rapping the hardest And I don't rap to attack, see I use it to guard us Chorus And maybe you've fallen down, and maybe you just took the long way home But baby you could never love you, like me And one day this will fade away, in the mirror you'll see your smiling face And standing next to you will always be me, yea me Verse 3 It's all about the effort and the time you put in It's all about the writing and the fire you bring I'm sick of being told that I'm not a real rapper When Im sitting in a frame with the photo you captured I write about the truth and the world that I know I don't yap about the fame, cause my tracks ain't for show I feel hotter than hell, and in my eyes Im a pro But I know you disagree, you see me zero below Does anybody hear me cause Im thinking ya don't Do you listen to the lyrics, cause I don't think so Why even be a fan, if you won't hear what Im saying If the world don't like my songs, then I'll spit em in heaven When you tell me Im no good, your adding fuel to the fire But thats really good for me because Im getting inspired It don't matter what you say or the hate you promote Cause the rhymes are getting better once they come out the throat You claim to be something that we all know your not You try and tell us stories but your changing the plot Why even bother running, you'll get caught, they're the cops I saw em throw away the kids once the jail bars were locked Bridge Tell me about those nights you stayed awake Tell me about those days you hated me Tell me how you'd rather die alone than being stuck here with me One day you're gonna see things my way You gave me so much room that I can breathe