I'm Ready

[Verse One] [Substantial]: Dude I barely finished school, it was gettin' really tired Now my parents pushin' me to take my education higher I wanna travel abroad, but I got a seed And my folks obviously want me to marry the broad That I laid down with, time to get me a job Work for snotty nosed kids and this fatherhood shit Like my father don't quit, man I'm gettin' buried Man shit is gettin' scary, might join the Military Cause round here it ain't at all hard to find a recruiter It was harder for my high school to find me a tutor Met him on the block, talked, gave him my background He like a pimp in uniform, layin' his mack down Sayin' plenty things that appeal to me And it sounded like a pretty good deal to me See the world, meet some girls and free school All while gettin' paid to me, it seems cool Anything's better than sittin' around here Deep as shit get, feel like I'm gonna drown here I'll give it a shot man, sign me up I'm just another toy soldier boy, wind me up C'mon [Chorus] [Elias]: I wasn't ready when you first rolled out the block Wasn't ready when I heard them shots I wasn't ready when you broke my heart But oh baby You better watch out cause I'm ready Oh baby You better watch out cause I'm ready I'm ready I'm ready I'm ready [Verse Two] [Substantial]: Finally got hitched the week before I shipped out Baby started walkin' after that, damn I missed out And without a baby to miss, I don't see how In a world I make it through this, it's crazy as shit It wasn't what I had in mind when I tried to get away Found God hella quick, before that I never prayed Now I beg for a better day everyday Heavenly arm but I'm too scared to let it spray Who said you unafraid is a horrible liar With everyday here's soundin' like the 4th of July Subtract the fireworks, add in some body parts I done seen more young flesh here than Mardi Gras Accept mistakes though my army fatigues Hardly can sleep Murder scenes all in my dreams Seen unspeakable things can't talk to my peeps Fam and wife worried cause I haven't called 'em in weeks But I don't want them to hear the fear in my voice And I gotta live with it, this here is my choice But it's hard to be poised when you're shook to the core At Hell's Gate standin', it's like my foot's in the door And to top it all off, I don' got my first kill Someone younger than my kid brother, it hurts still It's so ill when you're tryin' to survive For real I ain't tryin' to die, let me live [Chorus] [Elias]: I wasn't ready when you first rolled out the block Wasn't ready when I heard them shots I wasn't ready when you broke my heart But oh baby You better watch out cause I'm ready (Am I ready to choose? Am I ready to lose?) Oh baby You better watch out cause I'm ready (Am I ready to win? Am I ready to sin? Do I really want war?) I'm ready I'm ready I'm ready [Verse Three] [Substantial]: When I'm thinkin' of home, I get chills to the bones But I sit here alone, prayin' that I return Miss friends that I've known, little shit that I own Send a kiss through the phone, tell my wife ? I'm ignoring her now, though before I was foul Now I long for her smile and a hug from my kid An adorable child, I ignored for awhile Semi auto go POW in the butt and the rib Thinkin' oh my gosh, what I almost lost Can't afford the cost But I paid it dearly Man, war is harsh Got awful scars, nearly torn apart, and I make it barely By the skin of my teeth, fight vigorously Whether win or defeat, I'll make it through all this Got a letter from my wife, she fed up with my life She said it was not right, she callin' it quits After all this shit, she found somebody else Feelin' sore and sick, I'm down, this hardly helps I'll use this pain, no longer fight myself That's pointless like tryin' to drown Michael Phelps Swear to God this shit's wrong Gotta get home, shots will split domes, still we'll clash So ready or not, come get you a shot I'm ready to pop, so feel my wrath When I pick up a gun, better get up and run Gotta get to my son, better clear my path [Chorus] [Elias]: I wasn't ready when you first rolled out the block Wasn't ready when I heard them shots I wasn't ready when you broke my heart But oh baby You better watch out cause I'm ready Oh baby You better watch out cause I'm ready I'm ready I'm ready I'm ready