Caught In A Verse

Sometimes I feel like I'm caught in a verse Or I'm Bobby Fischer but nobody cared to search Can't look my mother in the eye no mo' Can't tell her that the god don't get high no mo' Its the beginning of a train wreck Hold ya heart cause believe me the camera won't explain it Or contain it, an angel said "free" Was I really what you wanted me to be? You trust the soul of the icey cold Because they bump you where guns and the drugs is sold And where the gods said they're born to roll And they'll think like this until they gray and old I think back to when I was drug free, care free But that was long ago kinda like a memory Do you remember me? Man it was long ago We used to like each other livin in the Fillmoe You never said no I never said hoe But like I said in the beginning that was long ago And from the start yo you knew I wasn't Mozart Marvin Gaye always said life comes apart And like a puzzle, some times it gets worse I'd probably break down if I step into church Man We had dreams of doin' things with money Its funny how situations get ugly I usta believe when a girl says she love me But now I take off, don't look back and keep runnin' A hundred miles an hour I'm hidin' my smile But now I find time just for writin' it down..huh It's kill joy, I'm still your boy 'til then I'ma build and destroy And fill the void I keep sinnin' in this sensitive world Though I've never gotten this for a lesson to learn...(never) Baby keep askin me when I'd return Not knowin' I'm a playa in every sense of the word..HUH My momma cry she know I ain't livin' right Can't legiaimize who I am in her mind Am I blind or just too ignorant? I'd give my life to feel that innocent I can't look back Bags is packed Sayin' "Won't nobody know where I'm at" ..(gone) Across the map No contact leave the phone Rollin' stone, and RARELY be at home I got a plan to get away Hustlin' a family We can live for betta days Or I mean HAPPY But everything comes with time One heart One luv One life It's like that