Deja Vu

[Intro] DMC, we have a mid-thirties male found down, unresponsive Possible overdose, substance unknown, pulse is 60 and thready Respiration's eight, he's intubated and we're baggin' him now BP, 90 over palp, patient is cool, pale, and diaphoretic Has aspirated, GSC is 3, we'll update en route, ETA, ten minutes [Verse 1] As I fall deeper into a manic state I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate Start off with the night well like, I think I'll just have a taste Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate To a harder prescription drug called Valium like, yeah that's great I go to just take one and I end up like having eight Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak And you'd think that with all I have at stake Look at my daughter's face "Mommy, something is wrong with Dad I think He's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos And he just fell asleep in his car eating 3 Musketeers in the rear seat" [Hook] Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know Feels like I been down this road before So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me As soon as I go home and close the door Kinda feels like déjà vu I wanna get away from this place I do But I can't and I won't Say I try, but I know that's a lie Cause I don't and why I just don't know [Verse 2] "Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer?" That's the devil in my ear I've been sober a fuckin' year And that fucker still talks to me he's all I can fuckin' hear "Marshall, come on we'll watch the game, it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers" And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half buzzed For half of the time, who's the mastermind behind that little line With that kind of rationale man I got half a mind To have another half of glass of wine, sound asinine Yeah I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol Ouch, look out for the wall, aim for the couch - I'm 'bout to fall I missed the couch and down I go lookin' like a bouncy ball Shit musta knocked me out cause I ain't feel the ground at all Wow, what the fuck happened last night, where am I Man, fuck am I hungover and goddamn I Got a headache, shit half a Vicodin, why can't I All systems ready for take off, please stand by [Hook] [Verse 3] So I take a Vicodin, splash it hits my stomach then, ahhhh Couple of weeks go by it ain't even like I'm gettin' high Now I need it just not to feel sick, yeah I'm gettin' by Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't die Oh yeah, there's an excuse, you lose Proof so you use There's new rules, it's cool if it's helpin' you to get through It's twelve noon, ain't no harm in self inducin' a snooze What else is new, fuck it what would Elvis do in your shoes Now here I am three months later, full-blown relapse Just get high until the kids get home from school, holmes, relax And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take three naps Just to be able to function throughout the day, let's see That's an Ambien each nap, how many Valium, three And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep Ok so now ya, see, the reason how come, he Has taken four years to just put out an album, B See me and you we almost had the same outcome, Heath Cause that Christmas you know the whole pneumonia thing? It was bologna, was it the methadone ya think? Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos Your VCR tape cases, with your Ambien CR Great places to hide 'em, ain't it? So you can lie to Hailie I'm goin' beddy bye Whitney baby, good night Alaina Go in the room and shut the bedroom door and wake up in an ambulance They said they found me on the bathroom floor, damn [Hook]