All Of Me

Look, they say tomorrow's not promised, but if it was I wouldn't get open Wouldn't get suits, them shits was made to be broken Remember coming up, dudes talking bout hoes boasting I was just a Juvenile, moving in slow motion I dropped out of school to be a dude with mad jewelery Once I got it, shit wasn't even cool to me I dreamt of condos and video vixens Until I learned most the girls in videos is pigeons I just wanted the world to see I was for real with it Wanted a deal, got it but couldn't deal with it I want me and my whole homeboys to still kick it I wish they saw me as mouse and not a meal ticket Let the beat play, I wish I could see a day With no he-say, she-say, I just wanna see Trey Wanna play the Hood and not **** with the toasters A middle child, wish me and my brothers were closer I wanna scream at her, catch myself before I start to And remember it takes two people to argue All she do is provoke me, all I do is diss her All I did was shake her, she said that I hit her She just taking every thing I say outta context I'm tryin' not to black, I'm like a nigga with a complex Was mad as a ****, didn't even show it Yesterday was better off, didn't even know it Complete role reversal, so it's useless these days TV got real, music went fake... Please help her for God's sake When I proposed to the Game, I figured life was merry Five years later I'm feeling like [???] Maybe I'm exhausted, maybe I just lost it Maybe I should pick up a pen, try and force it Same old story, guts and no glory They try and low ball me, do em like Joe Torre I reintroduce myself to the world, nigga I'm Jerz I'm a artist, I paint pictures, I don't rhyme words More then a rapper, I pay attention to detail 'Bout how I do in retail, tells me if I prevail Been long since I seen this trials and tribulations Foul situations with some male stipulations I feel like being an addict is a curse There's something bout dude that makes bad shit worse There's three types of niggas in this world, ya know? So you either gon' make shit happen, watch shit happen Or not know what happened And so I couldn't just sit there like **** rappin' There's dudes with problems I couldn't imagine having If I had to have them I couldn't fathom me lasting Like, I used to bump into Tammy in the club A few of them, she even help a nigga get in See a person long enough, you know you bound to get fly with 'em Care for 'em, be more than 'hi' and 'bye' with 'em It's been a while, I can't front like I ain't phased She was my reality check cuz we the same age I mean, she put on a show that you can't stage! She made the shit sound effortless I was damn near in tears checking my messages I got goosebumps all over my skin She said 'Mouse, I highly doubt that I'll ever see you again Hope everything is well kid See, I'm just findin' out I had a brain tumor, but I never felt it The doctor's giving me three weeks to live Not three weeks till I die, that's three weeks to give I just wanna tell you that I love you and I care I wish you all the best throughout the rest of your career?" And then she broke into tears I pressed seven, took the phone from my ears Sometimes the simplest of things, people need it But I ain't call back in fear of being speechless What was I to put her at ease with? I picked a real bad time to be strategic I think my life's bad picking up the pieces Some folk already got their appointment to see Jesus In this world full of diseases I've learned not to bite my tongue or have seizures Depression tells me I suck So I reply "I ain't here 'cuz I fell down, I'm here 'cuz I got up? And then I'm going back and forth with Ransom Shit came out of nowhere, was real random According to him, I'm responsible for Jerz too I never helped niggas? How the **** you think they heard you? Mutha****er's got a lot of nerve dude I was the nigga believed in you spittin' Had to con the industry just so they would listen But go 'head, you just gon' wreck yourself How was you protectin' me? You can't protect yourself? Let's keep the lies to a minimal, just read your interview I can't help but ask "What?s gotten into dude?" Media training, but he don?t know how that go It help you come across not sounding like an asshole! Then my past opened in Jail, I ain't enjoy it So why would I stand behind a mic and exploit it? I ain't ign'ant, just 'cuz I exercise spiritually They try to ignore how I exercise lyrically I thought I had a great job Back when niggas loved the coach and wasn't in it for the money like A-Rod Even when I'm spittin' 'bout current events It's a sublime sayin' who's more current than him?? So I'm wonderin' if a higher power's tryin' to undermine When you shoot for the stars, sometimes you're gonna jam I ain't been to SummerJam I learned from Lupe, when you 'dumb it down' it's just harder to understand 2008, hoes is still near me So you can think I'm tired as a ****, I'm still weary The Getto Boys say it's 'All in the Mind' Certain wounds only heal over time No shame in my game, no pain no gain And since I ain't seen a prophet (profit) I figured God would stop it Waitin' on the alley, niggas just won't lob it I'm still a risk taker, let me put it in words Can't still second base and keep your foot on first Been about ten years since I been high off the 'angel' Now I'm walkin' side by side with an angel In front of my eyes, that prize keeps getting dangled But can't grab at it so my pride is being strangled Workin' shawty's nerves like a personal trainer But it's me, its personal, it ain't her Friends keep telling me "leave her", I won't 'Cuz she see's something in me that I don't And I see something in her that y'all won't If you never been in love don't tell me I'm wrong See I preach gratitude, she keeps her attitude Argue long enough then the shit becomes laughable My norm now since for her it's so natural Wish I could tell her that "All the niggas after you!" So not compatible that we're compatible It's nothing else in this world that we would rather do Anybody out there relate to my pain Turn my music up and let me know that I'm sane We broke up, *****es was starin' at my chain Dude was ****in you but starin' at my name But we ain't gotta entertain all that Back like we never left, we overcame all that **** who made better tacos or who ass fatter Let's live for now, right now none of that matters We keep bringin' it up it, it'?s gon' backlash us [Fades out slowly] Why am I meetin' so many backstabbers? Why when I'm about to crash I go faster? Past is a disaster When your house is see-through, learn to close your eyes in case the glass shatters Just sayin', its always a million more pages When my stupid ass keep thinking I'm on the last chapter No tip-for-tat, I ain't equipped for that Back in New York, chit chat with a Mitchell's bag