When I'm Gone

[Intro] I don't know if love's real.. I don't even know what it means.. I just want you to see what life's like, through my eyes.. Yeah.. [Verse 1] Some say that love is unconditional For me, that whole phase was transitional Cause I ain't deal with the bullshit, I walk away from it But taking away from me, gives me additional Strength, to fight, see it's kinda like a side-effect If art is fact, now you know my heart you can't affect Cause I'm an artifact, call me the prototype I'm not the archetype, but I'm it's architect As I intercept, the radio transmitter Life gave me lemons, so now I'm just as bitter I'm sick of calling, I'd seen myself falling But I will hit the bitumen before I turn into a quitter It's like a whole verse that I deleted And rewrote, just to say that history repeated I'm out my mind over you, but I had to walk away Cause you were still the only thing I needed I'm on my own, guess I'm still appeasing Suicidal - I'm liable if it's killing season But I ain't just sitting idle, I'm idolizing dying It's why I feel more like I'm trying to give you a reason To hate me, but on the other hand Maybe all I want is you to understand What it's like for me, dealing with the pain Guess I gave you a migraine - was treated like a grain of sand So I'll disappear, on to the beach Drowning in the ocean - so I ain't here to teach And I guess, this is me at my best Cause for me happiness, always seemed to be, out of reach But that's why I seek, a different kind of light Cause if I were made of crystal, you'd be dynamite And I'd let you explode, just to see how much I take I know I ain't gonna break, but the diamond might Like if I am right, then you never cared You look at me, like I'm just a kid I know I'm not worthy, the truth is You could never hurt me, more than I already did I've seen my life pass, flashing Visions of screams in my mind, with cars crashing But before I let it happen, I just had to see you free And now it's time you let me show passion.. See the greatest love ain't love, it's just a compromise Only in it's truest form, you see life through another's eyes There's no way it's gonna heal, so unless your love is real Or your heart is made of steel, you will realize That your soul-mate is there, waiting Stuck in history, so I'm reanimating All the memories, it's like a compilation So I can deal with all the pain without the complication And I can speak without the conversation So you can see I reach my peak without the elevation But you can revel in the fact that I'm alone Cause I'm better off, and that alone's a revelation And your love - it had an expiration You moved my heart out of place, it's like an excavation And you remind me of my ex So I guess I shouldn't be surprised you left without an explanation It almost killed me, no exaggeration See how quickly I could age, from the agitation What if this Sleepless Dream was real? Then the True Love Stories must exist in my imagination Cause life's a game I just gotta play I love the craft, but I hate the tools Your last words were it will be okay Guess you didn't notice that it was April Fool's Ha, but you know I like the irony Like I rely on you, cause I just want to see you lie on me But it's a fantasy, it's like I finally Found what I've been searching for, was right there by the side of me And I still try to be, stronger but I ache now I'm like the child, parents threw into the lake, drowns I'm like a car, that's never had a service And I'm nervous on the surface, cause I've had as many breakdowns But in the morning, feel my warming heart Forget the music now, it's more than a performing art And yet I play my part, it's how I deal Cause I know either way, one day we'll be torn apart I'd love you now until forever if you let me I tried to cope, but all I hope is to be set free I know you're lonely too, and all you want to feel is loved Guess it just must be from anyone except me.. [Outro] But when I'm gone, I just hope you can forget me.. And all you want to feel is loved.. Guess it just must be from anyone except me.. But when I'm gone, you might finally accept me.. And all you want to feel is loved.. I guess it just must be from anyone except me..