Attracted to Pain

The same inadequate feeling I have When I was 9 in love with the (acre?) That come up when you are around me Envy jealousy sadness lack of confidence Compiled into an extensive list of defects, I still feel like a reject So I must eject your madness Cleaning out my cabinets Taking my key set back to (heart?) So you can (look to me for?) Deep emotional struggle Stain the canvas of my psyche Nice guys finish last That is the case with you and me Nice lies finish fast I'll also race (for 4 star of truancy?) So late to the dance I'm 31 your 21 Should have known better Should have run away when I spotted you But I entertained my appetite for pretty lips Let my ship sink yet plotted to get over my attitude I guess I got to much to work on to fuck with ya Take a picture of my condition and bound it in your memory Sweetness can't compare to aggressiveness When your messing with damaged beauty, sleeping All my instincts I need to listen It takes a lot to feed a fish and keep it alive I will survive and I will improve I will fuck up when i'm in the mood I tell myself I like the pain When I hit the pain I state my name in a picture frame, in the hall of shame, but that's not the case, so I must refrain, from your game Its not the pace I want to run I want to face my emotional demons And now and then they creep in, but I will not let them stay HOOK X3 There is something wrong with me I don't know what it it I;m attracted to what hurts The most (?) shit Give it to me baby hut my heart I like the scars I guess I haven't learned my lesson yet Feel me on this verse Its a blessing a curse To think from the heart first Hold the mic with confidence Then step out into the light and drink Used to fight it with a bong Now I highlight it and move it on (Needs work. Will update more later)