Benjamin's Curse

[Hook 1: Sample] Just as I was bound to lose my mind I heard a voice sweeter than wine Do you remember way back when? Let me make you a child again Do you remember way back when? Let me make you a child again Do you remember way back when? Let me make you a child again I want to see your smile again See your smile again [Verse 1: Dre Murray] A young lad trying to make it in a land Where being a black man they hardly understand Me neither; I rarely had a leader To bypass the bottle, to show me that I can Be a beacon of light, be a giver of hope Instead of taking a life, showing you what I tote Bag it up at the end 'til the end is at my throat The end being my death when the means is selling dope So I took another route; mapping my life out In the end I wanted dollars; let's see what this life's bout Round after round in my city It's going down Like Pacquiao; intrigued; like mama look what I found In the ground; there's a gold mine; I don't wanna escape This feeling I can't replace; see your dreams will have to wait On this grind; I want the cake, ain't even my birthday But I'm hungry and thirsty, but I'm hearing this earth say [Hook 2: Sample] Everyday is a roller coaster, and I'm not ready for the ride Life can drive you crazy Everyday is a roller coaster, and I'm not ready for the ride Life can drive you crazy [Verse 2] These four walls got a voice of they own, and I listen My mind missin' in the city where the hope is gone and crime risen The same box that had me intrigued is now prison The church I see a schism and treacherous competition So the answer's not religion for me; I got a mission of my own And I'm wishing to be anything that I see To get me out of this hell; yeah, my thirst has increased It's pretty dry in the well; police, they want me to fail That's how I feel when they throw a young kid In the back of a squad car, not telling me what I did I'm just trying to live, just trying to grow Just trying to learn, just trying to show That I can be somebody in this world of hate That's terrified of my face so they can't relate Insane; see, that's the reason why I chase the fame To show em' we equal and inside the same [Hook 3: Sample] Tell me how am I suppose to brace myself When it always comes from where I least expect Tell me how am I suppose to brace myself When it always comes from where I least expect [Verse 3] Now, my own people pulling me down Crabs in a bucket; I'm feeling like my luck is Run out; I pull up on my throne, they pull the guns out Like I ain't from here; they tell me since I got what they wanted first, I can never ever come here They say they run here, and I ain't welcome no more This ain't home; add some obscenities To the convo and yup! That would be the sum here; they bout' they math Lookin' like one they can grab; they a 99 So to keep it 100 and show they run it "That chain and that watch is mine" See, it's like a fine that you pay when you say "Oh, my family, they doing fine." Nope, not a crime They took my watch so I'm out of time Put the barrel to my face and I lost my mind Bang [Hook 4] Just as I was bound to lose my mind I heard a voice sweeter than wine