Letter to my old dude

[Beginning:Roc] I miss you like a mufucka But ill shoot you a few words you feel me [Hook:Roc] This letter to my old dude I just wanna update you on the latest news And kinda tell you how my life been going up & down I know you up in the sky lookin down [Verse 1:Roc] Its been a minute since we kicked it I don't know where to start So imma grab this paper & pen & write with my heart At first I ain't understanding i'm like why he leaving Remember that night so vivid By your adidas I lost my mufuckin man after that Didn't know how to handle my feelings so I start puttin them in raps Thats where it all started Never thought you'd be gone by the time I got retarded First they took New New then Goose Mojos next Now i'm strapped tellin niggas watch they neck Still aiming for a letter so I put these words together Tryin to find my way in this cold lonely world Had a baby boy but I couldn't witness his birth I was looked up in that sell so my feelings was hurt Couldn't bless him with my presents So I blessed him with presents Every time I go to church its like him beefing with reverents [Hook] [Verse 2:Roc] Every time I see yo friends they say you look like yo daddy I got the world on my shoulders I been stressin so heavy This life style that im living Yo nephew back in prison Yo sisters doing cool Both of the girls they in school Lil bros they doin ight They just need a little push Thats why im out here rapping so they won't take the path I took Tryin not to go back to prison I wanna hear my momma mouth And John doing all right Just dropped him off from robbing house Just doing what I got I had to take care of a few things Grandma grandad still doin they same routine Some days I wish you was here so I could hug you I respectively so much that women love you Been out of prison 6 months I'm just enjoying my freedom Your grandson a handful I wish you could meet him I wish you could see me I got bands & shit Plus we really doing music we got fans and shit [Hook 2x] [Roc] Toya like a sister to me out here Just live ilene talking to uncle You know what im sayin Kiv, Wayne, Foon I love you P.S Imma man now [Hook 2x]