High Water

[hook P.O.S.] I've been fully out my head Tell me if I'm tripping Tell it to me straight if there's something I am missing In a rear view mirror, see a jackpot spinning If we racing I'm winning Won't break until the finish, 'til I'm dead Tell me if I'm tripping Tell it to me straight if there's something I am missing In a rear view mirror, see a jackpot spinning If we racing I'm winning Won't break until the finish, 'til I'm dead [Sims] I haven't been as honest with me as I probably should I haven't been as honest with you as I wish that I could I burned the oars and made the map in hope that you understood In my defence I made this raft out of driftwood It's either sail or rudder, one after the other Peace inside my chest that flutters like a butterfly under this water Caught up in the blotter numbers what I could'a got If somethin' would have caught her, If I could have caught that ember Made a fire to remember, I do my best to render But I feel like a pretender, just started, never knew where I would end up It gets harder every year, but I never met surrender No no give up, just to get up, now I'm here Now I'm banging on this wall that I've been banging on for decades Not to be a hefe with a fan-base and nest-egg The only way to calm this chest-ache, vibration my chest make So I'm rappin' like a fool until death announces "checkmate" Don't know if that's cool or if I even do is workin' Keep goin' port to port and something tells me that its worth it Keep searching for the wind to fill the ink inside my pen My whole life i never felt right I'm out my head [hook] [P.O.S.] Dimethyltripdemitri Risen over vision while my body sits beneath me Prob'ly flip the switch and set the ship across the sea Lost at launch, cross the continents, tossed amongst the wash In the drink, these liquid lungs, skin thickens up Come to shove? pick a push, I prefer it to loss of love Watch See how if left alone, it presses on Let the pressure start to fester 'til the next prepared departure Peace, toss the bunny ears Deuces, ain't no running here Truces proving useless, this noose is removing air I took this bait but didn't mean to Still I seen it through, fever dreams, what's a fiend to do? [Dessa] Feet first, breach birth Home holds it breath until my screams hurt Liked in color, later language love and yes you learn to suffer My departures now outnumber my arrivals After all this evolution, fit for nothing but survival [Mitclan] We fight like Kunta K, this is our bloodsport That bite is tooth decay until the roots torn But I still got my wisdoms, honestists[?] and bad magicians Nothin' up the bedsheets, floating in the dead seas Hopeless, still romantic, romanticize the frantic Is it safeties in my panic? is it safeties in the numbers? If i was trippin', the walls would be drippin' And I could let it go in an instant but this is something different I gave the light her name, equation made it perfect And we can fight the flame, but the baby is what's burning She's not the torch, lost my head from all my wishes Now all the kings horses trap all the queens fishes [hook]