Losing Streak

Verse 1 Hi there Porshia, I miss you girl You moved on and I gotta be man enough to wish you well Oh I'm so jealous of your new boyfriend I can't lie, I wish it was I; I wish it was us I gave you gifts but I ain't give you enough I ain't give you the love Look at me now, lonely as the man who stands on top And I'd take both of my hands tryna turn back the hands on the clock Rewind that bitch to the day we met I'd do better, at least I'd try You were an angel in disguise Foolish I, I let you fly I let you go, I let you slide Fought my ego, blame my pride I shoulda been tryna make you my bride, instead I was tryna feed you more lies You're at home, I'm at the Telly turn off my phone I ain't shit, this is what I get; Did you so wrong Well they say hindsight is 20/20 and you don't appreciate until it's gone And here I stand all on my own, all by myself; Here's where I belong Just missing you, all season long Dig for my heart and find an empty space cause you're still not home and I'm all alone Chorus On my losing streak, on my losing streak Say I'm going through hell, add one more "L" to my losing streak Say I'm going through hell, add one more "L" to my losing streak On my losing streak, on my losing streak Say I'm going through hell, add one more "L" to my losing streak Say I'm going through hell, add one more "L" to my losing streak Verse 2 Hello momma, remember me It's been so long, we hardly speak No we don't talk not like we use to, no not the least I made some choices within my life that you don't agree I've been trying so hard to make you proud of me I've been knocked down and I managed to still stand on my feet and not take a knee Cause that's what you taught me, I learned it well I never let a thorn penetrate my shell If I want it, I go and get it myself And I'll dig my own grave before I ask for help I guess we're too stubborn for our own good Cause we don't ever see eye to eye And there ain't no good inside no goodbye So here I write my open scribe In my feelings, I'm too bold to hide I thought my heart was too cold to cry And I stand corrected I know you'll be happy to see your son with a college degree but that's not me I'm no scholar I grew up with no role models and no one to follow So I had to live a little to learn a lot And honestly I earned everything I've got Sorry momma, I love you dearly but I can not be who I'm not So I'm only me Chorus Hey unborn girl, daddy let you down Cause me and momma couldn't stick together nor stick around And truth is I'm probably gonna have to fight to be in your life But I get stronger after every round so we'll be alright Say hi to Jaylen, wave at Journey, smile at Kaya You're all survivors I almost gave up cause I was exhausted I almost lost it, the pain just piled up And lately I been a nervous wreck Can't live this fast and not expect to crash A few more minutes and this Christmas Eve woulda been my last To have Milton back, I'd give my all To keep them fed I'll give my last No I'm not perfect, I'm nowhere near it If that was a course, I flunked the class I shoulda been a better man and I shoulda been a better son I'm tryna better than I was yesterday before tomorrow comes And talk is cheap, you don't profit none I didn't believe in angels til I walked with one I'd never seen a dove until I caught me one Was too immature so I lost me one I take my scars, earn every bruise They say you can't win til you learn to lose And here I stand no chance at peace At war within me, virtuous me Tryna steal a win on my losing streak Chorus