Willpower

[Verse 1] My life just got sucked out of me No inspiration, no creativity Wouldn’t it be better in my fantasy But I can’t stand all the thoughts that I bleed I think I’ve lost my passion in music Now I just do it like I have to do it So anxious about my future career Things keep getting worse when I steer Fear is being injected into my system Worries and duties are making me not listen Whenever I let it all out I feel inclined To make a random mixtape to relieve my mind But instead it just causes more trouble My style and persona keeps getting awful I can never keep myself in check This has been going on for too long, I’m such a mess I’m sucking my mind dry of ideas Head so dead from thinking and traumas I’m no good at recording, I’m no good at producing I’m no good at writing, so what am I good at? Brain so creative and innovative But I don’t have any idea of presenting it Spit it out, I’m imaginative I say I love the Lord but I don’t live it Different words pop out and appeal to me I don’t do this for the power, fame, or money Is my genius vision a gift or a horrible curse It’s so unbearable that I feel like getting merked How may I ever survive in this world In the darkness and tough times I just curl I must overcome my fears of being alone Yeah I’m independent, I’m a lone wolf Uh, I’ve forgotten all the important things Now I’m just rambling on some random things Desultory stage, I’m just recycling lyrics Comatose phase, I’m just in my movement My body won’t listen I’m not moving on I’m just so stuck up on these types of songs No hooks or bridges it’s just me alone Only one verse, no features I’m solo So much for planning to join a label right? I keep wanting and pushing, internal fight I’ve been stressing way too hard on my music With school I got no days off, I’m gonna lose it My grades are suffering, I am suffering Will there be any hope that the future will bring? My will of fire is drowning, I can’t keep control Young and active yet I feel so stiff and old Now I question my purpose and my life Going blind from the mist I’m losing sight Pushing myself over the limit, over the edge Zombie on a journey heading to a ledge What happened to me and my patience What happened to my powerful motivation I know I’ve said my actions are unexplainable But from here on out I’m tryna make it say able Energy all depleted I need to regain my sleep Whole body aching and run down, I’m so weak Broken promises all stored in my record now I just talk the talk I’m gonna expect some doubt Skeptics, cynics, and unbelievers mock me The rain and wind are so strong against me Pinnacle of stress and failure, climax All of my haters hope to see me fall, Cinemax I go hard cause I’m afraid of seeing myself lose I act so hard like I got something to prove My carelessness is off the charts How can I ever call any of my works art? KJH dedication you will always be remembered Unlike me I’d be fading under the weather There ain’t no use for being depressed I always feel like I owe a heavy debt All these stuff are such a nuisance But I shouldn’t be complaining about my grievance Yo Kyle, how did you get through each day? All these are little things compared to your pain Man even with your problems you put on a smile For me I always smiled but now it hurts to smile Filled with trials and tribulations, my journey is long Where do you get your willpower to carry on? Yeah I always take life for granted and whine So why don’t we switch places, you live and I die? I’ve lost my force, I’ve lost my drive My strength is diminishing therefore I cannot thrive But Kyle that ain’t something that you would say Yeah you would carry on every single day Man homie, I miss you so much Just seeing old photos of you ain’t ever enough I wonder what it would be like if you were still here That one memory of seeing your face is so clear Those old times are the ones worth remembering Dreaming of you, I can’t stop reminiscing I shouldn’t complain when life gets tough Because I’m sure compared to yours, you had it more rough Going off of this I will continue to power through And I believe that one day I will make it through