Repetitive

[Verse 1] I don’t how to start this, I don’t what to say The future has made become so afraid At the same time I feel so blind and lost Burning from the heat, freezing from the frost My life is in ruin I’ve lost all my willpower I can only watch my dreams from a high tower Same things different day every day Yeah no change everything is the same Talk the talk, I say rep the Lord But I do this selfishly now my life is torn Predictable circuit has gotten me bored I just want a life worth dying for Soar high, I want the wings of an eagle Swallowed in the city dwelling with other people Going crazy inside this tiny box But I can’t find the key to be unlocked My elders always tell me to study hard So that I could be successful and have a good life Get a good wife and have a couple kids Get the bank flow along with a nice crib You telling me to live ordinary? No way that I'mma live that kind of daily All this workload is intruding my ambition Got my own business, man what is this? Rookie in the game, child on the road Haven’t even retired yet I feel so old Oblivion descends, it falls on the pathway Confidence is gone, I begin to sway And it’s only troubled times that I pray Otherwise it’s just during meals everyday If that’s the case that why am I living? Just getting by while constantly sinning Not growing in any way, stuck in a phase Don’t even look at my life it’s all full of shame Not a music passion but a duty You say that I’m lucky but you haven’t seen the ugly The good life, well I ain’t living that Stuck underground sleeping with rats Stuck in my animus cave filled with bats Always so stressed, tired, annoyed, and mad Like what’s up with that? Is that it? Is that all there is that life has to give? My journey has yet to even begin Yet I’m complaining about the mess I’m in Uh, time is moving on without me I’m still in a hard place making myself bleed This ain’t even close to a first world problem All these things in life I have yet to fathom Still in the past preparing for the future But what’s the future if I don’t live the present My mind and body don’t seem to get the message I’m being so reckless my brain is being senseless [Verse 2] Cars driving by, people walking by Rain pouring down, hard decisions to decide Lyrics that I don’t spend enough time with Recording and producing I don’t deal with Then what’s this rapping career for? Just slowly building my house on a shore I wanna speak light and more relevance Need more healing and more medicine If this is my purpose I hope it works If not I might as well have my life merked Meaningless stroll, life feels so dull But these winters in my mind are so cold Yeah screw my plan yeah scrap it People look at me and ask me what happened It’s now or never, can’t wait for fate Or else I might be one day too late Dreams shatters, my vision shatters But God has given me something better I hope that I will be content and fulfilled I pray that God will have me live [Outro] Is that all you think life really is? Man, guess I’m asking myself the same question