Migraines

[Verse 1] Sometimes I just wanna rip off my face Grab a pistol and blow my brains out Burn my mouth with acid so I can’t taste Stab my eyes with knives so I can’t scout Pull out every single hair till I’m bald The life I envisioned ain’t the one I ball Cut deep into my fresh, bare, and dirty skin Heavy brain filled with records of all my sins Bored, messy, and stressful life tires me Textures aggravate me, people annoy me Dirty house irritates me, dreams scare me My haters don’t faze me, lots of stuff make me angry I can paint a picture with my mind So abstract there ain’t no meaning you can find Squeeze tight my fists and just wreck everything Future is foretold of melancholy things Body about to tumble, so skinny my bones show Weak body I’m still so young yet I feel so old Uh, yeah that ain’t a good feeling All these thoughts in my head keep spilling My voice is only a peep compared to others Only if my brain can speak I’d be louder The studies tell me that my stats ain’t good enough Numbers and letters make me rough Throw the notes and work into the flames But hating the books ain’t part of my aim Keep repeating depressing and harsh songs I’ve thought suicidal thoughts for too long Cause I wonder why I should suffer on Earth Sometimes I wished I could erase my birth Let it all out, I say let it all out Journey of pain, such a suffering route Using rhymer.com, the dictionary, and thesaurus To write my rhymes and lines, I really suck Man, sometime I get sick of listening to music If I could open my ears to the world and listen I keep seeing all these visions and flashbacks I see objects still clinging on my icky taint I don’t even feel like a saint, but a slum My whole body is so unhealthy I’m numb The heat and cold always hits me so hard Fears of crashing if I decide to drive a car Please slap me in the face and wake me up By myself all the time I’m going insane The rain, is so depressing and down I can’t seem to turn my frown upside down Yeah, I’m a beast I’m a beast I’m an animal, my mind can just take over I wanna jump off a cliff and splatter Random people don’t think it really matters Take a nap from a long day Get back up with slumber and cranky attitude Wish my coming days wouldn’t be like this Hitting and smashing things with my fist Society can say whatever they want Going to school without care of what I wear I’m a zombie, I just keep on consuming things Materialism is so evil, I feel like a monster Gloomy sight, cracked lips, pimple and acne So stressed and tired I don’t get enough sleep Clipping my dirty fingernails to cover my trail Eating random snacks and food, so stale I’m lazy and moving slow I’m a snail Trading for a pet raven, giving away a quail Clear my throat I know I have much to say Ahem, about my boring and horrible everyday Negative has affected me so much Every year is differently hurtful and tough On my grind, yeah no stopping Fam, friends, and fans could give me some loving Stretching and cracking my back and bones Knots in my back, my whole body is stone Switching up my same clothes and style Ain’t like you kids who can buy your own style Creative and thinking mind that adds spice But this intelligence of course has a price I so wish the internet didn’t exist It’s helpful, but does more bad than good Injecting social network and websites Into my veins, needles win over the fight Don’t you dare call me garbage or trash I’m a lot more terrible than that good stash Me and Jadakiss receive them nightmares This is my curse, these headaches I can hardly bear Uh