Courtside

[Verse 1] Uh, I think I’m in the wrong position Most of time when I think I don’t listen Solitary brain, self-inflicting pain They say the sun is pretty but all I see is rain All the things I’ve done have been contradicting Maybe cause I’m thinking but not really thinking Never have I ever been so afraid My sanity is loose I don’t think I can maintain Tame is such a hard action to do Control is something I’ve never been able to do But really I want to win I don’t wanna lose Sore player on the court, all I hear are boos Hate it when nobody believes in me Especially when it’s people who say they fam to me Like who you calling brother? I don’t see that Don’t tell me it’s for my own good if you don’t believe that Got no tone changes in my voice Rappers be begging on some Rolls-Royce But I’m the true phantom, I’m the true ghost To the empty stadium let’s all have a toast And I know that nobody’s gonna like it I’m so abstract and hated but I still write it Scoring a hundred like Wilt Chamberlain Tony Massenburg from all the teams he was in Haven’t been able to establish a career So many things in my mind that I fear I don’t think I’ll get a deal so solo Mediocre at everything so that’s a no go Doctor remixer, mister mixtape But I’ll tell you right now that I ain’t any fake Real as they come even if no one likes it Tryna be honest to core instead of cryptic Listen, I ain’t tryna start any fights But I promise if you threaten me I will bite Said I would rep my city and my God But that didn’t happen it was only what I thought I’m so sorry I’m just so lost Never realized all this was such a heavy cost Decomposition, recycle and reuse Plan failed from all the decisions I couldn’t choose Winter zone creeping from the birthright It’s either me or him it’s better to indict Please say it if you have any last words No summaries or explanations, my turn [Outro] Dreams are raised Desperate for a taste Lives are laid Head on a blade Needless to say Never feel praised Destiny awaits This is my way Yeah, I guess this is what I gotta do