Bleeding (Medicated)

[Verse 1] I really should get medicated Insanity tricked me into thinking that I made it Dead for a long time, so far gone Why do I have to keep up with this curse with songs Yeah I told you it’s been a long time coming Tell you that I’m fine but I’m really bluffing Nothing, that’s the word described for me Eternal slave to the throne, I’m no longer free 20/20 up close my eyes aches and burns From all the things I’ve said I can never learn Uh, was hoping that I could stop this one day Now I just say but I can’t say that I can say Feels like I’m on top of the world Reality I’m suffering underground Frowns of a child but that isn’t right A kid’s expression should be happy and bright My perspective and vision is so jaded Exhausted and wasted I feel super faded Blurred vision that’s why I need my glasses Contacts get dirty and then I get all blinded Shining for nothing I’m just so self-centered A selfish freak who only talks won’t get any better Room for improvement? More like rehab You think I’m good but I’m the real reason of bad Sad to even think of this or even to explain on this I’m just repeating my mistakes with my checklist Chains on my wrist, I guess this is how it is Can’t believe my attitude I always feel so pissed Guess this is how things turn out Can’t seem to get my feet to take another route The plan is devastating there goes my dreams Mind so deadly all part of the devil’s scheme Shattered mirrors I know that I’m a mess Yet I am blessed but I can’t carry on the test Numbers, stats, letters, and words come Could’ve been smarter but I’ve made myself dumb Heart bleeding, bones bleeding, gums bleeding Eyes bleeding, skin bleeding, everything is bleeding I’m pretty sure that I lost my sight Everything I do and think never seems right Yeah, I need to get some outside influence Stuck in a cage I need support before I lose it I’m desperate just for a couple friends Ones who would stick with me until the very end Always day dreaming about a community That would always be with me and won’t betray me Unlike those other two but I already know People change and their actions really show Shots in the arm by the nurse, vaccination Going through pages and pages contemplating This is a problem I can’t seem to fix No sort of health care seem to be fit Opulent in the front but inside is horrible Read this straight out of prediction, oracle The Lord says that he would take me as I am But first I feel like I need to throw out all the spam Man, why can’t I just give my life to someone Someone who deserves it, there can’t be no one Misfortunes and tragedies I feel super sorry Then I feel these life for granted things come upon me [Outro] Yeah Time is so precious But it seems like I can’t take in the message So restless I’m wicked