Nostalgia

I wish that I could turn back the hands of time Tomorrow only knows what the future holds Thanksgiving with the fam in my grannies crib I'm on the floor while my pop watch the Superbowl And my auntie the same And my uncle's dad crackin jokes on my cousin for them tight ass plans That was 1996 I'm in '95 Thinking bout them old days 'cuz I miss that shit Now my fam fell apart now theres no more dinners Used to be ? now we buisness models Trading ? in for guns And then use 'em for bottles 'Cuz I got my own kids and I'm back in tradition I ain't into holidays so it ain't no Christmas Things ain't the same I done lost my spirit Birthdays come around and I can't even feel it Was it a dream or was it a lie? Say a prayer bow my head and wait on God's reply And I wish I had wings swear to God I'd fly Better talk to my aunt 'cuz shes always high But who am I to judge 'cuz I used to smoke? Bruh she fightin breast cancer man it ain't no joke And it killed ? and he got them babies Now their momma is all alone, who gone help them raise 'em? Reminiscing 'bout them days when I played my Sega Sonic The Hedgehog with the multiple players Had the fresh fade with the part in the middle Rockin' LA Gears, couldn't afford them J's Stealin' from Sou Lee who had the ? truck But Sou left feet man they stank like fuck Playin tag in the street outside the woods Fist fightin' over bikes that we stole from the hood Turn back the hands of time man I wish I could Was it a dream or was it a lie? Say a prayer bow my head and wait on God's reply They said I wouldn't be shit Guess what? I made it Daddy said he'd be back Still feel like I'm waitin' Momma beat us all the time she ain't got no patience Just somethin' to think about before you hit your babies And she prayed for better days and it drove her crazy But gotta give it to her tried her best to raise me ? held it down she was just a baby who never had a childhood and I knowin' thats crazy I'm buy a resturant when I make my millions Shit, tears writin this and I know that you feel it I ain't never tell momma I was touched by feelings And I ain't never gotta say it 'cuz I know I'm the realest Had a fallin out with Sosa I just want him to listen Come to think about it, really wasn't that serious Dedicated to ? because I love her so dearly Was it a dream or was it a lie? Say a prayer bow my head and wait on God's reply