3AM

[Verse: DeadCrow] As of late i feel as though im displaying too many emotions I dont know if I can mask it Feelings just go & I can't grasp it, heads a hot air balloon, bodys a basket Drifting into the clouds over Earths axis Into the mist like the smoke of twenty six spliffs & by twenty six if, I dont have a couple bricks, ready the casket Ready to end this, I meant this Whats the point going hard like cement is if my only accomplishments Are illegal consequences, & a compliment to a cons sequence I dread this, feel like lifes endless In opportunity, but after I hit puberty Life shifted from wanting to catch worms to feeding these birds seeds The epitome of a piece of shit Not a, care in the world, I just sit in a whirl & beat my dick I come from a home of high expectations Brothers & sisters at graduation, im at probation Sleep deprivation, Im up at late hours debating my time of detonation Or if Hell's my destination A walking time bomb, every drug is what im on & I just wish I coulda been a better gift to my mom Once an aspiring athlete to be joining the class elite Now a conspiring addict, beat, conjoining obsolete Got nothing going in my direction In cops cars ive landed in, abandonment for going with my discretion A walk in my shoes will truly prove why Im filled with depression Ain't nothing good thats worth a mention I finally understand what its like to feel emptiness & like previously mentioned, why i dwell in twenty spliffs Its a cold world but my heart is colder I give the world a cold shoulder, I feel like Im an old soldier Too many things ive done that im ashamed of & many reasons why I wanna blow my brains off