Window to My Soul

My big brother. Revolutionary love You know your lil brother love you, dawg You know your sister love you, dawg You know your mama love you, dawg We riding right here with you dawg Be strong man. Keep pushing forward. Look here You're my brother and I love you and I wrote this for ya If I could change anything, it's what that dope did to ya Coming up, I looked up to being just like you Same crease in my khakis tried to dress like you You getting swole lifting weights, stocking caps with waves I'm trying to see the world how you see it, wearing you shades You and pops never really got along, who was right or wrong 15 years old kicked out all alone in this cold world And I can only imagine what you was going through Cause I was so young when it happened Mama cried like a baby that day She never blamed you, it was painful Cause she knew the streets was waiting to claim you Over time, we could see the hardness in your face Wanted to help, but couldn't find the words to say I guess I went into denial hoping for the very best Stopped believing in they God cause what God would allow this? Not in my wildest nightmares, nothing compares To see my brother be a crack fiend for all these years Tried to send you inspiration when you was locked in the pen But soon as you came home you right back on that shit again And mama say she don't feel safe with you home She got to hide money and lock her room door when she gone We still love you but until you find strength in yourself And the will power to open up and accept our help What can we do? I can't let you terrorize mom dukes We feeling like we just gone have to turn you loose They say in war there's no victory without causalities But when it hits your family that's when you really see Like a window to my soul, you can see the pain in my life Got to make a change in my life (it's a struggle every day) And it's not impossible to make a change in my life (gotta keep pushing forward) I can make a change in my life, I know (ain't no other way) I know it's hard coming home to the same old shit Ain't nothing changed cause the game don't quit The pain inside is still throbbing The same conditions that first created the drug problems still exist And it's a bitch, got to go to the job or starve Without a gun every day employees get robbed And on days off, we blow off them crumbs like nothing Getting high cause a nigga gotta get into something But we get trapped in a cycle of pain and addiction And lose the motivation to change the condition I blame it on the system but the problem is ours It's not a question of religion; it's a question of power How did black life, my life, end up so hard? Why do so much injustice go unresolved? Why the ones we call governments be the main causes Behind why all the dope is coming through the borders Television reporters got the facts distorted Making scapegoats of every black youth on the corner It's a war even though they don't call it a war It's chemical war unleashed on the black and the poor And who benefit? the police, lawyers, and judges The private owned prison industry with federal budgets All them products in the commissary Tell me who profits, it's obvious and it's going too good for them to stop it In my mind, my body, and my soul, I need a change in my life We need a change in our lives, you know And it's not impossible to make a change in our lives We can take the pain from our lives, fa sho We don't own no boats We don't own no planes to bring no dope We don't make no cellophane (bags to bag it up) We just caught up in the game Don't you know Don't you know it's bigger than this shit I know you know. I know what's in your heart dawg I love you til the end of time. And again and again I'mma be your brother, your comrade, and your friend Til we win and even then