Walking To My Grave Again

[Verse 1: Damien] We know you bitches hate us But still wanna imitate us Quick to degrade us But never will you fade us Haters tryin' to make us lose this Saying I'm not a killa, boy, I prove it Do it in an instance, rippin through intestines When I get to stressin' I feel this way No sunny days, I walk in the rain Ashamed of this pain that I have to face Frontin everyday like I'm ok But everybody knows, it's been the same Just more bullshit piles on my plate It's really hard to put a smile on my face I've lost the race giving up the chase My body hurts so much I can't pick up the pace I'm walking slowly towards my grave Hoping I can make that change Win or lose, I'm in this game And if I fail, then I'm to blame Aim your gun right at my head Let the blood shed, paint the pavement red Bullets embedded in my brain and I'm dead See my life in a flash as I lay there and bled Razor blades and alcohol, mix it all with adderall On my knees I start to crawl Blood and guts smeared on the walls Baby doll this my last letter I hope from now things will get better I told you we'll always be together In hell's flames we'll burn forever [Hook x2] Walkin' to my grave again Walkin' to my grave again We're living our life in sin Walkin' to my grave again [Verse 2: Ian] I fuckin' hate myself It's incredible that I wanna leave this place I fear the sight of my mother at my grave Crying for her first born, this brings me pain I don't really wanna feel no more God can you hear me? Take this away Every step that I take is one step closer It's getting really hard to try and keep my composure Acting like I'll be alright but the truth is I don't even really know what I'm doin' I feel useless, confused and stupid Psychotic and they found no solution Everyone's got a problem in their life man Nobody's perfect and you gotta try to understand That most people will bring you down Most people will let you drown You gotta get up, keep on fighting Get away from depression, I keep on writing Keep my dreams in my heart, right on my eyelids Keep my smile on my face even when they deny us I got a gift so I gotta use it Even when I break down I keep drudgin through it Thinkin to myself everything is fine keep on movin' Even when the cards stacked against me (not losing) I refuse to lay down and die, it's not in me I am not leaving, I will keep fighting till my last breath Clenching my chest, taking this stress One day at a time Soon enough we all die anyways Might as well walk towards that grave With a smile on your face till your very last day [Hook x2] [Verse 3: Magick] Every step that I take I'm a little closer to my grave I hope my soul can still be saved Even though I know I misbehaved I steady put the pen to the pad Sing these songs, mic in hand Offer love of the fan Game on till light down So they say, you can never have it all I say, you can always get up from a fall Steady with the steps You gotta learn to crawl Who says you can't have it all So with every step I take is one closer to my grave I'mma savor every ripple I make to look back just to say I'm from the home of mirrors, so many others pray Purple hearts and all those medals engraved But I have honor runnin' through my veins I'm no span up, so lames, listen to me I don't play no games The secret it's all yours to tame Take a stand and stake it claim This is how dreams are made Live your life to the fullest like you're heading to your grave [Hook x2] [Sample] There are no more barriers to cross All I have in common with the uncontrollable And the insane, the vicious and the evil All the mayhem I have caused And my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed My pain is constant and sharp And I do not hope for a better world for anyone In fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others I want no one to escape But even after admitting this There is no catharsis My punishment continues to elude me And I gain no deeper knowledge of myself; No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling This confession has meant nothing