Left Side Of The Chest

Once the damage is done, the damage is done I didn't tell the truth cuz it hurts So lived a lie, but learnt in life Honesty's the policy that works.. Even tho you may say sorry An apology is just words.. An affair is so unfair I've broken hearts & I wish things weren't like this But they are and man are not proud Every action has a reaction & I found out when Karma came back round It's peak cuz I wear my heart on my sleeve It's always the ones that you want that you can't have & the ones you can have that you don't want.. Cuz lately the ones I'm attracting Just seem so distracting can somebody help.. I feel the love but inside Feels like I ain't done enough.. I don't wanna jump the gun But I'm getting impatient, come far But can't see any payment yet Got faith I've got what it takes But still get stressed.. I'm struggling lord but you know whats best I put down my line & picked up my mic, but my family are on it.. I feel like the odd one out if I'm being honest But learnt that tomorrow ain't promised So I live everyday like my last.. I text my nxggas & I tell em that I love them & even tho some don't text back I don't expect one so I don't judge em As long as they know that I've got der back I'm coming back from a show Then it kicks in I'm going home all alone The daytimes fine when I'm occupied But the night times not, it's like I'm lost.. Being single in a double bed Don't make no sense when you know what you want Maybe I'm being stupid But when I feel like this I don't do music I'm thinking if Kailie still misses me & think if Leanne is missing me too It feel like they turned good friends When they found out I found someone new We don't know better until we know better Apostle told me that & it's true Sitting in my room & I'm bussing my brain Tryna make Round 3 better than Round 2 (FuReal) My mom said 'show me your friends' & I'll show you who you are.. I'd rather be known for spitting Then living behind those bars.. Thinking that it's my fault That J1 ever got pon dat charge.. You might see happy on the outside But inside there's pain in my heart!! Weed & alcohol Have been my antidote I'm living lyfe like every day is January 1st But music's slacking, haven't wrote a verse In ages having, man come to me 'like look at where so & so is, why ain't you der So & so ain't big', I tell em in time but they've heard it before Sometimes I think have I got what it takes Cuz only a few man get through the door There's mc's out there without a name I'm grateful I've got one but I want more.. I'm with Choppa & Brutes at the Drake Club Paradise tour thinking I gotta live that life, unless I get locked or die Trust me I won't quit pon my Dream, I bring sutten different to the Grime Scene, TeamDapz all the way.. I'm tryna make sutten out of nutten Make mommy proud so she nuh warnt for nutten I ain't gone through this heartache for nutten Nutten's gonna stop me reaching my goal Cuz man have been, broke for too long I pray for the day when it finally pays off I don't see Leah as much I would like Cuz I'm tryna put in that no sleep grind & when she tells me 'I love you daddy' It brings a tear to my eye Cuz your too young to know what's been done Last year was nuts!! The time will come When I sit you down, but for now keep smiling Cuz when I'm low you lift me up WOAH!! Forgive me Lord I'm Sinner I know, I'm tryna become a winner I know, you work in mysterious ways.. But don't make mistakes, music's my fate I'm onto better & bigger, just know Round 3's gonna be SICKA!! I hope you relate to what's been said.. It came from the Left Side Of The Chest