Drift Away

[Verse 1: Danny Bravo] My pen and pad playing therapist I drift away in my thoughts My friends asking me where I've been I'm disappearing a lot My family says I'm scaring them I'm the only one that they got My girl's saying that she's leaving me And I can't convince her to stop So it seems like I'm all alone, I'm alright being on my own But it's hard being underdogs when nobody throws you a bone And I got a lot of emotions I'm trying never to show So I'm trapped in this glass house but I'm sitting here throwing stones And I'm asking a lot of questions, certain things don't make sense to me I've learned a lot of lessons, not in calculus or chemistry I know that diabetics have a lower life expectancy I'm living for the moment, what the fuck would you expect from me? Cause I've seen my cousin leave before his time He was only 21, I never even said goodbye And that proves tomorrow ain't promised to anyone alive And I could be next to die But I know that my problems are only burdens and this pain is only hurting Cause I'm trying to go be perfect but homie, I'm only person So for those who ask me where I've been, I've been alone and working That way when I make it, you can't say that I don't deserve it [Hook: Jeano] I reflect on the page, oh And I wonder where the days go My mind flies but I stay low I slow down and I drift away (2x) [Verse 2: Danny Bravo] It's an impossible obstacles that I'll never get over Losing my best friend, losing another soldier in the battle Now I'm rattled and I can't move It's hard to say goodbye, even harder if you never get the chance to It's not fair, I'm trapped in this nightmare I don't know how I got here but I'm sitting in your bedroom and you're not there But I can feel you, you're here Down my face streams tears Feels like it was only yesterday, it's really been years So the only thing to do is reminisce and say "cheers" Like a goal scored but no more reason to celebrate Until the very day I levitate to Heaven's gates And they say that life ain't it seems, well this must be what they mean Cause it's all so surreal like I'm in a movie scene Now the only time you're seen is when you visit in my dreams And I pray I don't awake, somebody's made a mistake So much pain and we ache, so many tears at your wake I look in your mother's eye and I see the pain in her face Like damn Frank, you were great, now it's all put in perspective My family comes first, everything else is second So give me all the money in the world, I got enough of that Give me all the fame and all the girls, I got enough of that Let me win the lottery, really what kind of luck is that? I just want my cousin back [Hook: Jeano] [Verse 3: Danny Bravo] I look in the mirror and start reflecting On all the circumstances I was blessed with but rejected Now I'm much wiser and I can put it in perspective But I was destined for the dejection that manifested When I realized I was manic depressive, the panic set in Like I can't accept it, this shouldn't happen, I'm just a damn kid Travelled to the bathroom cabinet for the medicine to better it Instead it just lessened my adolescence All he ever knew was pain, you can feel it in his diction But something real is missing when you struggle with a pill addiction Losing weight cause I can't eat Losing faith in humanity Losing my battle with insanity. putting stresses on my family Suicidal fantasies man-handle me My count down was moving Because I know that no parent wants to bury their child, but I was bound to prove it 'Til I found this music, used to say I won't amount to shit Now I'll amount to an amount so high, they can't count to it Middle fingers up to anybody that doubted it Cause nowadays everything is golden like an alchemist Bravo [Hook: Jeano] [Outro: Danny Bravo] So is this what the top feels like? Or is this not real life? Or am I only getting started? Will I ever be the greatest? Man you god damn right I've never been in a spot this bright So I guess I have to rock this mic Cause I know you only get one shot at this life I guess this is what the top feels like