At This Moment

I'm a broken man, who needs a home And and only you can provide Know what I've done, and my lust for the flesh But I want to come clean for God You can fix me, make me whole once again Through you I can find the strength I need the love, and comfort of the spirit I need that to get past this rut I can't quite confirm, or say ill never sin I'd be lying to you and to me But I want to heal, I want to mend The scars that burn away my soul In order to do that, I need to admit Explicitly how I've come to sin Hopefully you'll thank me, so please understand This life style wasn't always a choice Formed out of, depressed world views I hide my true emotions away I can seem to figure, I can't seem to purify I can't seem to do that alone my God The one whom is Supreme, the one whom I love The one who will never let go The one who is there, with a strong enough love To heal the souls of the damned So far my sins, are not quite through I still have a miles to go But I'm not alone, there are others too Both faithful and faithless People who sin, who make mistakes And ones confused with everything The ones lost, the fatherless wanderers Maybe they'll find their home This isn't about vanity, or about the appeal I can't be something I'm not I want to be Godly, so I can survive In doing what I could always do I want to live up, to what He has planned But not at out of fear I know he is warm, he'll welcome me home Never like we've experienced before His kingdom above, where I want to go Is a place to aim for and strive I can't think of, a man who wouldn't Who couldn't ever think so high Of himself that he, would denounce The Lord Just to further his stance as man They lie to you, as I to myself About trying to get into my future If I cared about him, I'd already be fixed But he is always there to help The father I wish, the one whom I had The only one truly supporting me Of choices in life, the healthy ones The ones to help earn a spot up there Fame is an illusion, that lasts for so long Why strive for such a thing When eternal life, and happiness is there Through the creators compassion See I need to rid, not just want to leave My past life and problems behind Not hide them away, or cover those up I'm not ashamed of my actions Not that I condone, behavior of such The lustful life of the heathen But I'm above such trash, above the mistakes And I know God will adore me so But when you get, if you begin to feel supreme Then all of GOD's lessons go out the door You are not better, I am not better He is She is They are and We are not either Take it however, Look at it however GOD is the only one who is supreme For we are men, and women also And ultimately children as a whole We never grow up, and do as we wish For we seem to think that is the law Such impulse ways, cause only grief And prevented me from potential of peace My potential of peace, spiritual mending from GOD The only one who could matter right now Not just now, but for ever and then Forever and 10 fold that time Without him we'd not, be here as we know Even though you'd think otherwise If not for him, how could I vent How could I sing this song This song to repent, this song of regret This song to show great remorse For choices of mine, the life I've lead Right now here, I have no cash But soon that will change Just because I'm set, and your here Doesn't mean this would work See I know you, I know you care Possibly even spend eternity with you But along the way, down the path I doubt I'll be completely there I could never break, or scar your soul I want you to be closer to God I'll just drag you, I'll pull you with me And we'll both sulk in self pity [Outro] I came to confess, to completely come clean To find a way to get closer to possible perfection To rid my dirty sheet, The seedy stains of past Sins and impulses I gave into before this song There's a sequence, to the events unfolded And I want to be baptized again of Lord I want to write for you, I want to make for you I want to spread your work in a honest way But first let me finish, let me first end the war With myself and with no one else For blaming the Devil, and acting as such Would be for me to pass on the blame I'm responsible for my actions Something that can never go away