Outbound

May I be allowed to voice my opinion to you Today I feel like I made a choice And now there's no turning back Isn't it great when you're a failure in life And all that you've aimed for's gone away from your sights Whilst your top eight mates are plain sailing through life It's grey when you're bright but unable to quite Make it through the day without evading the strife I stay awake through the nights, lay in wait for the light Brain vacant despite the debates in my mind Like maybe my plane may have strayed from its flight Failed to pervade and faded from the sky Dan Bull's a candle with no flame to ignite It's painful to write, I strain just to type A page full of lines and I've drained all my pride Eyes dry, I'm unable to cry Time flies and I trail behind You may say it's my fault, maybe you're right Maybe it's myself to blame for my plight I overdose and close my eyes 'Til I'm comatose and slowly rise Over rows of roads and signs Flows, tides froze in time From lows to highs until there's only skies No lonely lives cloaked in phony lies No disguise, the skies are open wide It goes as no surprise No surprises, no alarms No-one cries, I'm going calmly I'm dazed, I seem to spend my days in a daydream I've been this way way before the day I was eighteen Haters say to me I waste the space to breathe Wait for the train to Leeds with my claims in my case and leave Please, believe me, I'd say I agree Let them eat cake? I'll take it and eat it Jeez, even taking a beating's a great deal easier Than waking up each day in a place full of fears And praying for amnesia with a faceful of tears The pain's so severe that it aches and it sears Peel away the veneer, the real state's revealed I've been patient for years, just waiting to hear Someone say that it's OK, that I'm safe cos they're here But it's blatantly clear that that day's nowhere near I hate to tempt fate but I'd be grateful for either The faith of a believer or to fade away and disappear I overdose and close my eyes 'Til I'm comatose and slowly rise Over rows of roads and signs Flows, tides froze in time From lows to highs until there's only skies No lonely lives cloaked in phony lies No disguise, the skies are open wide It goes as no surprise No surprises, no alarms No-one cries, I'm going calmly So I'm closing my curtains and making my bed Cos no-one on earth knows the pain in my head No-one knows of the hurt or the strain or the dread Though I'm over the worst I can't face things ahead I'm escaping instead, I'm leaving this place Erasing my thread and I'm cleaning my slate Safe now I've fled, serene and sedate There's no waking the dead when they beam into space I've seen into space, shaken hands with the stars And the feeling's great when you're landing on Mars Dreamy and weightless in ambient dark Only hearing the sweetness of transient harps With my hand on my heart I assure you it's bliss Soaring back to the starkness before you existed Before you were born, before you were kissed Before you were torn from the immortal abyss I overdose and close my eyes 'Til I'm comatose and slowly rise Over rows of roads and signs Flows, tides froze in time From lows to highs until there's only skies No lonely lives cloaked in phony lies No disguise, the skies are open wide It goes as no surprise No surprises, no alarms No-one cries, I'm going calmly I'm at the last act No now amount of dark can harm me