Suicide

[Bizarre] Pay attention [Verse 1: Swifty] (Why you doing this to me?) Come on, quit the yapping There's no justification for the way that I be acting I be asking for forgiveness, now you wanna end this? I'm clean as a whistle, I promise I won't hit you but I still do Every five minutes I'm calling you I'm psycho, I might go nuts that's why I follow you I wasn't showed affection, I fuck you rough, cause all I know is my erection (Enough is enough!) See it's tough, but you don't think I hit another nigga He'll be tied up, looking at me licking on your picture I'mma pop your sister, then go for self Cause if I can't have you, shit, can't nobody else I'm rebellious, remain the scandalous 2 of the room in anger management, bitch I can't handle it Fuck it, I hate you Fuck it, I love you [Hook] You make me wanna cry, suicide is on my mind You beat me all the time, I wanna die You make me wanna cry, suicide is on my mind You beat me all the time, I wanna die [Verse 2: Bizarre] Who the fuck gives a fuck about a foster child? Two years old, left at Belle Isle My life's so fucking bad Never had a mom and dad Shit I'm surprised I ain't a fag To release anger, I learned how to box Got my ass kicked while the whole neighborhood watched Now who the fuck gonna hire a laid off mechanic Recovering drug addict, gets so crazed he's schizophrenic Me and my mom, we lived in a trailer She died 6 months ago, I still fucking hate her Shit I hate me, I hate my fucking life That's why every night I beat the shit out of my wife To fight the demons, Bizarre stay high That's why my son go to school with a fucking black eye See my little boy, run up and hug him See you in hell, tell D12 I love'em [Hook:] [Verse 3: Proof] It's like my eyes getting bigger and this wall's closing in Closest friends telling me it's all supposed to end I done brought you diseases that I caught from the skeezers Even talked to the preacher he said it costs to see Jesus I know I need work, only way you leave me if you leave earth And I rather not breathe first Shaun Holt always remain open, never die alone, shit I know you hear me crying Lord You gave me drugs and choices of girls God you made me and played the biggest joke on the world Lady I'm in the rap, maybe Shady that, I went and had a baby behind your back, I'm sorry You don't wanna live, I don't need to live But you must understand I die without them, I need my kids Although I fight to like you, but I bite this rifle Pull the trigger, cause I ain't living this life without you [Hook:]